girlfriends...

yesterday, i got a phone call from a girlfren of mine from f6, telling me that she's getting married. i was so happy to hear from her! i have this bunch of really good frens in f6 and even after we went to uni, we still kept in touch thru e-mails and phone calls... but after a while, the e-mails and calls got less and less, until at last, when we came out to work, we lost touch totally. or maybe i should say, i lost touch with them totally. they're still keeping in contact with each other, maybe coz they went to the same uni, me to another.

sometimes i wonder if they really saw me as how i saw them. i mean, i met them only in f6, coz i'm from another secondary school and they've known each other since the early years of their secondary school. but when i joined them in f6, i THOUGHT we were pretty good frens... i mean, i'm always 'grouped' together with them n am always included in any of their activities.

but after leaving uni, i stopped getting any word from them. occasionally, i'll get news of them from other ex-classmates, so and so has changed her handphone number, and so and so's e-mail address is no longer active. hey, how come i'm getting all these news from other ppl, when they're supposed to be my girlfrens? *sigh...

then i got news that sw got married last year. i was so disappointed at not being invited, or at least told about it, even tho' some of my other ex-classmates were invited. i mean, it's ok if we dun keep in touch that often anymore, due to work n life n other things... but............ *sigh... dunno lar...

my fren, H, was telling me the other day that he has learnt to depend more on himself and less on his frens. u may be very loyal to ur frens, treasuring n trusting the friendship more than anything in the world, but u'll never know how it is from the other side. how true... well, i guess that's life. things are not always what they seem to be.

hmm... on the other hand, i have a bunch of really really good girlfrens, since our primary school days... yep, we've come a long way! we don't keep in touch that often, coz we're like scattered all over the place now, but we do meet up occasionally during festive seasons or chat on the phone or send some e-mails... and even tho' we dun meet up that often anymore, when we do meet up, we just pick up from where we left off. no awkwardness or shyness... really great to have this bunch of frens!

anyway, i'm very very happy when ss called me yesterday. she even went thru the trouble of calling up my parents to get my contact number. at least SHE thought something of our friendship and wish to share her happiness with her long-lost fren! :)