Thursday, 14 July 2005

defeated

i finally decide to go back on a decision i made earlier, due to short-sightedness. it seemed like the right decision then, but now i realize that things are not so simple. guess i have to bow down to reality.

am bogged down by downheartedness and depression lately. guess the pendulum's on a backward swing again. need a good cry... think i'll go back today and dig out my 'leong san pak & juk ying thoi' (butterfly lovers) vcd from my sad movies collection. nothing like a good cry to cheer one up, however ironic it may seem!

5 comments:

Biow said...

what happened, my dear fren? i'm also very depressed today!! also feel like crying my heart out.. *waa aaa aaa*

stargal said...

dunno lar... life is just not what it seemeed. *sigh...

didn't get my cry yesterday. stucked at the lrt station for more than 1 hr coz of the rain, cold n hungry. by the time got home n finished shower, late oredi. didn't wanna cry myself to sleep lest i get puffy eyes.

but what happened to YOU?

lotsachi said...

whoa... what happened? what's up with the crying? don't do that, cry before sleep...u know. i did that a few days ago and it's really ugly and tiring!

i can't believe u have to 'schedule' to cry. gee...

stargal said...

yeah, i know abt crying b4 sleeping. that's y need to schedule it. takkan u expect me to burst out 'baw-wa' loud-loud in the office rite? sometimes we need to really cry our hearts out... good for our souls!

lotsachi said...

yes yes. i agree. we certainly need to find some way to feed our soul... human fragility includes the soul too (besides physical/biological).