lukewarm chicken shit?

*warning: ranting post ahead

what is it with ppl??? hate it when they generalise everything and just base things on their own assumption!

so i've tried learning the piano and gave it up after a while. and sold off the piano. does that make me a loser? am i supposed to keep at it even though i don't like it? would that make the whole wide world happier if i do???

everytime i tell friends what i'm doing, they would say things like "har? a new interest? so what happened to ur piano?", or "are u sure this new thing won't end up like ur piano?" urgh!!! they have to keep bringing up the blardy piano! so what if i gave it up halfway??? so shoot me!

i've been skating for nearly 3 years and i still like it, ok??? and i've been playing the cello for more than a year and i'm still passionate abt it, ok??? in fact, i'll be taking lessons from an mpo player to bring my skills to another level, ok??? and i was in KK for like more than 10 years, ok?????? does that sound like hangat-hangat tahi ayam to u???

i just don't know what is it with ppl... just because i'm passionate abt so many things? is that it?

is it wrong to wanna try things? and when we found out that the things we're trying is not what we want, not something we like, is it wrong to stop doing it? is it wrong to move on to other things? urgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after all these years...

...he finally apologised. all these while, he's never really showed that he was sorry for what he did. whenever we talked abt it, he'll always say things to justify himself or asking me to let go and move on. urgh, the jerk!

but he finally up and apologised, in straight and simple words.

i know i've hurt you. i'm very sorry. i hope you'll forgive me.

well, forgiven. but not forgotten! muahahaha........

messy...

been preparing my blog for a more 'public-friendly' facade... password-protecting some sensitive posts and removing some all together. and not being really savvy in these computer n internet stuff, i'm making a big mess with 'scrypting' (is there such a word? aiya, dun care lar), with paragraphs running all over the place. but it's the best i can do for now until i find a better solution...

caught!

woo hoo! the very first book i released into the wild was caught!!! i'm over the moon now...

yesterday after work, i was just walking around, looking for the right place to leave my book... then i thought maybe i could just pass it to someone. so i started looking ard for the 'right' person to pass it to... and since the book is a romance book, i thought maybe it'll be good to pass it to a girl. then on my way to the lrt station, i saw 3 foreign women walking in my opposite direction and immediately i stopped them with "excuse me, do you want a book? it's free". the woman nearest to me put up her hand and said a very determined 'no'. but her face!!! it's written all over it that she thinks i'm one of those direct sales ppl trying to lure ppl into buying stuff or going for their free trial something! from her face, it's as if she's saying, "look, pls get away from. free? yeah right! i'm not gonna fall for your gimmick!"

i was crushed! this is for a good cause and ppl are treating me as if i'm trying to con them! *bawl*

so, still shaking from being looked upon in that light, i continued walking towards the lrt station. at the queue while waiting for the train, i was standing just next to the bench there. so i thought, why not just leave it on the bench? but i didn't, coz there were a few people sitting there. then the train came, and as the line was making their way forward into the train, i suddenly turned around and dropped the book on the bench. in full view of everyone! after that i just walked casually (with a selamba face) into the train. haha... what an experience.

then yesterday night, after coming home from dinner with N, i saw that someone has caught it and reported it as found (the term we use at bookcrossing is 'made a journal') at the bookcrossing site! even before i had a chance to issue a release note! actually the right procedure is, once u've released a book, u need to make a release note at the website stating where u released it so that bookcrossing can track it. tak sangka the anonymous finder is so enthusiastic in taking action upon finding it...

ah, this made my day. not everyone is as indifferent as it seems. there's hope yet for humanity! am heartened! :)

a near release!

so i was gonna release my very first book yesterday, and i was kinda nervous. after work, i walked around for a bit to survey on the best place to release my book… and after a while, i decided to just leave it on a bench. so i found an empty bench opposite the isetan entrance on the ground floor of klcc and sat down. i put the soon-to-go-on-a-journey book down on the bench next to me and put my bag on top of it. i sat there for a while, trying my best to look as natural as possible. i had to make sure there were no passers-by around when i get up to leave. won’t want anyone to chase after me with the book in hand, saying things like, "miss, u forgot ur book!"

after a while, when i thought the coast was clear, i stood up and walked away. after abt 20 paces, i turned around and took a peak at it. it’s still there, sitting innocently waiting for its next potential reader. then i decided to observe it from afar. so i took the escalator up, hoping to watch it from one floor up. but as i was stepping onto the escalator, i saw the cleaner makcik pushing her cart towards the bench and looking at the book curiously. oh sh*t… do i just let the makcik take the book and consider it the book’s karma? or do i chase after the makcik and rescue it?

in the end, i went to take it back. can’t do that to a book, rite? so that’s a false start... gonna try releasing it again later. hopefully someone nice gets it before the cleaner makcik!

or maybe i should find a leng-chai, approach him and say, "hello, do u want a book? it's free!" and hope he buys me dinner? hehe...

new look...

i was tinkering with my template html, to see if i can include the password function into individual posts when i messed up the whole html codes... so i might as well change the template and give this place a new look... but after upgrading my template to the new beta functions, the recent comment thing don't seem to work anymore. still trying to figure it out... other than that, how do u like it?

anyway, let's see if the password thingy works. yh, feel free to try to hack into it!

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edited: yay, it worked! so next time u see these password-protected post, try to ask me nicely what the password is and i MIGHT give it to u! :Þ

ready for release...

ok, i think i've never mentioned this before here, but maybe some of you have already noticed the logo at my sidebar, that i've became a bookcrosser recently. end of last month actually... i think the concept is simply ingenious and i love it! releasing a book and then see where it ends up... tracking a book's journey... there's a certain magical feeling to it, don't u think?

however, not everyone shares my enthusiasm for it. the few ppl i've mentioned it to, other than YH, gave me the 'are you crazy?' look. *sigh...

anyway, i'm not gonna harp on abt other ppl's opinion here. the reason for this post is this:



the starter kit that i've ordered to prepare my books for the wild has finally arrived! so excited... it consists of bookmarks, post-it notes and bookplate labels enough for 25 books. ok, i know i can always download the softcopy file and print them out... but since this would be my first release, i wanna make it real nice. more exciting mar... will use the printouts after i finish up the kit next time.

i'm not lost - i'm on a journey! the post-it note:


bookplate labels, explaining what to do:


and so, my first batch of books ready for release! so excited...


hmm... wonder where shall i release them... anyway, here's a link to my bookshelf. not many books in there yet, coz need to register one by one take a blardy long time!

oh, and i've also joined the m'sian bookcrossers! they seem pretty active in the bookcrossing cause, having meetups every month and all that. i'll be joining their meetup for the first time this coming sunday... so excited neh!

no updates...

been a lazy ass lately... maybe it's the holiday season, or maybe it's work. maybe it's because i've been too caught up with my other activities... who knows?

ok, going back to become a lazy ass again.