Monday, 5 May 2008

show down...

u said u'll wait till after his exam before breaking the news to him, but u acted too rash... yeah, he forced u to blurt it all out, but actually u could have swallowed it down and bear it for another month. u are not a good actress after all...

u wanted a peaceful and calm break up, but u still speak all those unkind words to him. it was unnecessary... but u just had to open ur mouth n speak ur mind. y hurt him further by telling him all those things? u needn't be so truthful...

u cried hard when he requested for one last hug from u. yes, it's difficult. and it may be the last hug u'll get from a guy who really and truly loved u with all his might. u even contemplated taking it all back n keeping his love forever. but u urself know that is a very selfish act. and would u be able to live that way? to be loved and not love? i dun think so...

u know u must live with the consequences. of course u'll miss his love and care and all the things he's willing to do and sacrifice for u. but since u've decided to take this course, u'll just have to live with it and make the best of it.

these past few days has been an emotionally charged one, but i know u'll live. u've been thru worse... and u still have ur family and friends whom u can count on. so for now, just take some time and let things settle down for a bit. go back to your prime point of faith and dun forget to include a little prayer for him too. u've hurt him badly, it's the least u can for him now...

3 comments:

San said...

Life takes strange turns at times and I know how diffucult it is to smile and keep moving on. But, u've managed to control it well during our meet up last Sunday. Anyhow, do bear in mind that you are cared by many..and I'm one of them.

May there be sunshine everyday ahead!

stargal said...

hey, i'm really fine lar! maybe ppl can say i'm heartless, but i really feel so light and free now! but thanks for your care! :)

Kai San said...

Glad to hear that! Dun worry..I'll keep my option wide and help u to achieve ur new mission..hahah! Kau Chai!!!!!