pure coincidence?

it's pretty scary, really... whenever i'm feeling blue or lonely or down or pensive etc, suddenly i'll get an sms from the x. basically, he leaves me alone most times. we don't keep in touch after all the storms died down. but once in a while, he'll just drop me a "how are you" msg and it's always when i'm feeling rather down in the dumps. or when i had a dream of him the previous night! scary, right?

anyway, life's been pretty mundane lately. yeah, i admit i feel pretty lonely sometimes. those deep kind of loneliness, u know? like even when u're surrounded by people, friends and families, you'll still feel lonely. very deep, right? haha...

but overall, i'm still ok lar. bz with work and stuff... so all is good!

Singapore Flyer Official Opening Photography Contest

since we're talking abt photography (ok, only biow!), thot i'd share this with everyone...

Singapore Flyer Official Opening Photography Contest

scroll down to near the bottom, at the category 4, and u can see bro's name as the 3rd prize winner! how cool is that? :)

change of url...

need to change the url, coz the x knows the old one. that was why i passworded this blog previously.

goodbye, my baby

after much deep and long deliberations, i've finally arrived to a decision... i'm giving up chewie *sob*

ever since i started working, she's been living a very pitiful life. as i'm often working late, coming home only after 8 or later, i don't really have much time for her. normally i'll just let her out long enough for me to feed her and clean her cage. only occasionally will i run her thru her tricks. and no walks AT ALL!

that's y i feel i'm being so cruel, letting her sit in the cage the whole day long. everyday when i come back from work, she'll be sitting in her cage, looking at me with her big brown kesian eyes, trying to be patient but still can't help whimpering at me, going hungry when i come home late from practice or wherever that i need to go...

and now my job requires me to be outstation frequently... nearly every week! just her boarding fees is enough to burn a hole in my pockets. and i read somewhere that actually, boarding is very stressful for pets, tho' i think chewie is getting a hang of it, coz by now she knows all the gals at the pet boarding place. and she's such a ppl-friendly doggie!

actually i've been toying with this thot for some time now... but was so reluctant to part with her! she's such a smart and easy to train dog... and so lovable too! *sob*

but i finally contacted my friend to tell him that i'm giving chewie up for adoption. he's the guy who gave me niji last time and i remembered him mentioning that if ever chewie has babies next time, he'll want one puppy. that's y i contacted him. but he din reply my sms! apa lar! so i msn his sis, and she asked me some basic questions as well as chewie's pic. then she sent out an e-mail to all her dog-lover friends and within minutes, we have an enquiry!

anyway, to cut the long story short, chewie will be staying in kepong from tonight onwards. and i heard she'll have a new doggie friend too! a schnauzer... hopefully they'll take to each other! actually, chewie is not really a doggie-friendly dog. she seems to like humans more than her fellow doggies! i dunno y... when she went to obedience school, she's had many contacts with dogs of different breeds, sizes and temperaments. and STILL, she's very hostile towards them! *sigh* just hope she'll accept her new schnauzer friend.

but most importantly, hope she'll settle in quickly to her new home and her new owners! that is what i'm most concerned about. coz according to the pet boarders, she'll have diarrhoea the first day in boarding, even tho' her appetite never failed. and yes, i'm GIVING HER UP, not selling her. many friends, and even mom, asked y don't i sell her. but how can i? she's my baby! i'm not gonna sell my baby! i just hope for her to have a good loving home, and that she'll live a happy and healthy life. then i'm satisfied.

*sigh* sure gonna miss her! :'(

surrounded by poisons...

lately, the environment in the office is getting quite tense... although i'm not directly involved in it, but my manager is the main protagonist. and as my seating arrangement is right smack in the middle of the opposing parties, i'm literally caught in the middle of the cross fires.

actually, from a 3rd party's point of view, the matter could've been settled quite amicably. and anyway, it's all higher management's matters. shouldn't involve us small fries.

but the problem is, the assistant of the other manager is such a petty person. in secret, i nicknamed her 'mulut laser' coz everything that comes out of her mouth is like poison, spewing vulgarities and vile remarks left and right. even on good days, she'd have lots to say abt everything and everyone. she may be very nice to you in your face, but the moment you turn your back, she'd be gossiping about you. and nothing escapes her!

so since the outbreak of hostilities between my manager and her manager, her fav topic of the day is of course my manager! her mouth is yakking non-stop the whole day long. and tho' generally she leaves me alone, but she is so loudmouthed that one can't help hearing every word she says. even the designer intern under me is scared of her!

so tired of all her complains, gossips, petty squabbles, name-callings and vulgar remarks. i need earmuffs!!!

most creative greeting...

haha... this greeting is by far the most creative one i've received so far, from seb:

(sms start)
i don't know which 'n' years ago in jurassic park time, a small cute dinosaur was born on today. i think mayb u la. although i guess u won't admit u r dinosaur, but i'll keep wishing you HAPPY BIRTHDAY & wish ur dream come true + have a successful & happy year. smile :-)
(sms end)

cute right? had me laughing!

mount kinabalu challenge!

guess what?! i signed up for my company's social club's mount kinabalu expedition in oct! sei mou?

even though we're paying for the trip ourselves, the organiser still wants to make sure each of us will be able to reach the top. so every week, we're to attend a training to build up our fitness level and not bring shame to the company. keke... so far, there has been 3 trainings at the batu caves, but due to one reason or another, i was not able to join them until the 3rd training.

well, basically, we're just to climb up and down the stairs at batu caves and keep adding more rounds each week. and i'd say i did pretty well for my 1st training. with 1 up and 1 down trip considered as 1 round, i managed to do 2 rounds! this is not bad at all, u know! other than the organiser, the rest of the gals only did 1 round for their 1st training (the organiser gal did 5 rounds - crazy hor?). i'll try to increase my rounds to 3 this coming weekend... hopefully lar, coz my leg muscles still hurts like hell now!

other than climbing up and down the batu caves, we'll also be going for trekking trips around kl. should be quite fun, and at the same time, it'll be a good chance for me to work out some!

where did that come from???

it's amazing how our mind works! i've been discovering how my mind can compose it's own words and gibberish when i'm half asleep at my desk, esp lately, after starting working regular hours again. my current job requires me to wake up very early, so by the end of the day, i'll be a walking zombie! normally i'll be in a state of stupor by 11pm... and if i still have work to do, that's when all those funny compositions and whatnots will appear! when i look back at my work the next morning, a big question mark will form in my head, "har?! where did that come from???"

and yesterday was the funniest instance! i had just managed to struggle thru till the end, hoping to finish off the last bit and e-mail it out before i call it a night. by then i was so dazed that i had to keep stamping my feet and shaking my head to keep myself from dozing off in my chair... then when i was about the shut down the laptop, i thot to myself, "eh? did i e-mail it out ar?" so i opened up my outlook again to check. in my outbox, guess what i saw???

i dunno y or how, or mayb i was already in dreamland, but i actually e-mailed out my work to mon, with the subject title:
"u never study hor? better sit there, at my new place..."

BIG question mark, right?! i immediately went and called mon over to look! needless to say, i was wide awake instantly and rolling about in laughter!

over-controlling partners...

seems like this is the latest 'in' thing among partners? just yesterday, a friend told me of her daughter crying abt her over-controlling bf... and then this morning, the topic for mix FM's 'he says she says' is also on over-controlling partners! and all these right after my own show down with the over-possessive bf! pure coincidence or is this the prevailing trend among partners nowadays? hmm... points to ponder, huh?

neeways, met up with the x no. 2 yesterday to discuss on some stuff... he's looking more composed and calm. we even had a nice chat on general stuff. maybe it's really possible to remain as friends after all these...

show down...

u said u'll wait till after his exam before breaking the news to him, but u acted too rash... yeah, he forced u to blurt it all out, but actually u could have swallowed it down and bear it for another month. u are not a good actress after all...

u wanted a peaceful and calm break up, but u still speak all those unkind words to him. it was unnecessary... but u just had to open ur mouth n speak ur mind. y hurt him further by telling him all those things? u needn't be so truthful...

u cried hard when he requested for one last hug from u. yes, it's difficult. and it may be the last hug u'll get from a guy who really and truly loved u with all his might. u even contemplated taking it all back n keeping his love forever. but u urself know that is a very selfish act. and would u be able to live that way? to be loved and not love? i dun think so...

u know u must live with the consequences. of course u'll miss his love and care and all the things he's willing to do and sacrifice for u. but since u've decided to take this course, u'll just have to live with it and make the best of it.

these past few days has been an emotionally charged one, but i know u'll live. u've been thru worse... and u still have ur family and friends whom u can count on. so for now, just take some time and let things settle down for a bit. go back to your prime point of faith and dun forget to include a little prayer for him too. u've hurt him badly, it's the least u can for him now...