of ficklemindedness...

gosh, i'm just so fickle that i can't stand myself sometimes! hehee...

remember my target for year 2010? if you forgot, go scroll down or click on this link to refresh your memory, especially on target #1. go on, i'll wait...

well, now things have taken a little twist... suddenly i have this desire to take off to a faraway land. to experience a different culture. to see the world.

ok, maybe some of the recent happenings in the city has put a damper to my already waning confidence to the country's system and have spurred my desire to seek greener pastures elsewhere. or maybe lurking in my friend's blog, who is currently an expat in one of the european countries, has ignited the kaki jalan (lit. "walking legs". malay for "person who likes to travel") in me. but i've always been restless to a fault. in fact, it's really a wonder that i've stayed in this city for so many years!

maybe it's the fear for change, the complacency, the laziness to act, the lack of courage to face what's out there, the comfort zone i'm in now... whatever it was, i've never really felt any strong desire to seek my fortunes in a different country until now. yeah, sure i did gave it a thought, but only in a half-hearted, fantasy, what-if sorta way. something like when we fantasize about being a princess with a disney fairy-tale kinda life. hehe...

now, i'm really giving this thing serious considerations. i've even dropped some mention to a few of my well-placed friends... people whom i think have the contacts and position to be privy of any suitable position for me.

heck, i've even considered taking a year off to join those teaching english in japan programs! japan has always been on the top of my 'places-to-go' list since forever. so what better way to get up-close and personal with the country than to work there!

so as of now, i'll be on a look out for opportunities beyond our borders... and linking the points back to my target #1, i reckon i'll not be moving anytime soon. no point moving to a new place now, only to have to move again after a few months when i've found a new posting elsewhere. moving stuff accumulated in the span of 10 years is no joke, ok?!

but gosh, being the fickle me, i hope this new target don't change anytime soon! :P