*warning: ranting post ahead
what is it with ppl??? hate it when they generalise everything and just base things on their own assumption!
so i've tried learning the piano and gave it up after a while. and sold off the piano. does that make me a loser? am i supposed to keep at it even though i don't like it? would that make the whole wide world happier if i do???
everytime i tell friends what i'm doing, they would say things like "har? a new interest? so what happened to ur piano?", or "are u sure this new thing won't end up like ur piano?" urgh!!! they have to keep bringing up the blardy piano! so what if i gave it up halfway??? so shoot me!
i've been skating for nearly 3 years and i still like it, ok??? and i've been playing the cello for more than a year and i'm still passionate abt it, ok??? in fact, i'll be taking lessons from an mpo player to bring my skills to another level, ok??? and i was in KK for like more than 10 years, ok?????? does that sound like hangat-hangat tahi ayam to u???
i just don't know what is it with ppl... just because i'm passionate abt so many things? is that it?
is it wrong to wanna try things? and when we found out that the things we're trying is not what we want, not something we like, is it wrong to stop doing it? is it wrong to move on to other things? urgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, 26 December 2006
Tuesday, 19 December 2006
after all these years...
...he finally apologised. all these while, he's never really showed that he was sorry for what he did. whenever we talked abt it, he'll always say things to justify himself or asking me to let go and move on. urgh, the jerk!
but he finally up and apologised, in straight and simple words.
i know i've hurt you. i'm very sorry. i hope you'll forgive me.
well, forgiven. but not forgotten! muahahaha........
but he finally up and apologised, in straight and simple words.
i know i've hurt you. i'm very sorry. i hope you'll forgive me.
well, forgiven. but not forgotten! muahahaha........
Saturday, 16 December 2006
messy...
been preparing my blog for a more 'public-friendly' facade... password-protecting some sensitive posts and removing some all together. and not being really savvy in these computer n internet stuff, i'm making a big mess with 'scrypting' (is there such a word? aiya, dun care lar), with paragraphs running all over the place. but it's the best i can do for now until i find a better solution...
caught!
woo hoo! the very first book i released into the wild was caught!!! i'm over the moon now...
yesterday after work, i was just walking around, looking for the right place to leave my book... then i thought maybe i could just pass it to someone. so i started looking ard for the 'right' person to pass it to... and since the book is a romance book, i thought maybe it'll be good to pass it to a girl. then on my way to the lrt station, i saw 3 foreign women walking in my opposite direction and immediately i stopped them with "excuse me, do you want a book? it's free". the woman nearest to me put up her hand and said a very determined 'no'. but her face!!! it's written all over it that she thinks i'm one of those direct sales ppl trying to lure ppl into buying stuff or going for their free trial something! from her face, it's as if she's saying, "look, pls get away from. free? yeah right! i'm not gonna fall for your gimmick!"
i was crushed! this is for a good cause and ppl are treating me as if i'm trying to con them! *bawl*
so, still shaking from being looked upon in that light, i continued walking towards the lrt station. at the queue while waiting for the train, i was standing just next to the bench there. so i thought, why not just leave it on the bench? but i didn't, coz there were a few people sitting there. then the train came, and as the line was making their way forward into the train, i suddenly turned around and dropped the book on the bench. in full view of everyone! after that i just walked casually (with a selamba face) into the train. haha... what an experience.
then yesterday night, after coming home from dinner with N, i saw that someone has caught it and reported it as found (the term we use at bookcrossing is 'made a journal') at the bookcrossing site! even before i had a chance to issue a release note! actually the right procedure is, once u've released a book, u need to make a release note at the website stating where u released it so that bookcrossing can track it. tak sangka the anonymous finder is so enthusiastic in taking action upon finding it...
ah, this made my day. not everyone is as indifferent as it seems. there's hope yet for humanity! am heartened! :)
yesterday after work, i was just walking around, looking for the right place to leave my book... then i thought maybe i could just pass it to someone. so i started looking ard for the 'right' person to pass it to... and since the book is a romance book, i thought maybe it'll be good to pass it to a girl. then on my way to the lrt station, i saw 3 foreign women walking in my opposite direction and immediately i stopped them with "excuse me, do you want a book? it's free". the woman nearest to me put up her hand and said a very determined 'no'. but her face!!! it's written all over it that she thinks i'm one of those direct sales ppl trying to lure ppl into buying stuff or going for their free trial something! from her face, it's as if she's saying, "look, pls get away from. free? yeah right! i'm not gonna fall for your gimmick!"
i was crushed! this is for a good cause and ppl are treating me as if i'm trying to con them! *bawl*
so, still shaking from being looked upon in that light, i continued walking towards the lrt station. at the queue while waiting for the train, i was standing just next to the bench there. so i thought, why not just leave it on the bench? but i didn't, coz there were a few people sitting there. then the train came, and as the line was making their way forward into the train, i suddenly turned around and dropped the book on the bench. in full view of everyone! after that i just walked casually (with a selamba face) into the train. haha... what an experience.
then yesterday night, after coming home from dinner with N, i saw that someone has caught it and reported it as found (the term we use at bookcrossing is 'made a journal') at the bookcrossing site! even before i had a chance to issue a release note! actually the right procedure is, once u've released a book, u need to make a release note at the website stating where u released it so that bookcrossing can track it. tak sangka the anonymous finder is so enthusiastic in taking action upon finding it...
ah, this made my day. not everyone is as indifferent as it seems. there's hope yet for humanity! am heartened! :)
Thursday, 14 December 2006
a near release!
so i was gonna release my very first book yesterday, and i was kinda nervous. after work, i walked around for a bit to survey on the best place to release my book… and after a while, i decided to just leave it on a bench. so i found an empty bench opposite the isetan entrance on the ground floor of klcc and sat down. i put the soon-to-go-on-a-journey book down on the bench next to me and put my bag on top of it. i sat there for a while, trying my best to look as natural as possible. i had to make sure there were no passers-by around when i get up to leave. won’t want anyone to chase after me with the book in hand, saying things like, "miss, u forgot ur book!"
after a while, when i thought the coast was clear, i stood up and walked away. after abt 20 paces, i turned around and took a peak at it. it’s still there, sitting innocently waiting for its next potential reader. then i decided to observe it from afar. so i took the escalator up, hoping to watch it from one floor up. but as i was stepping onto the escalator, i saw the cleaner makcik pushing her cart towards the bench and looking at the book curiously. oh sh*t… do i just let the makcik take the book and consider it the book’s karma? or do i chase after the makcik and rescue it?
in the end, i went to take it back. can’t do that to a book, rite? so that’s a false start... gonna try releasing it again later. hopefully someone nice gets it before the cleaner makcik!
or maybe i should find a leng-chai, approach him and say, "hello, do u want a book? it's free!" and hope he buys me dinner? hehe...
after a while, when i thought the coast was clear, i stood up and walked away. after abt 20 paces, i turned around and took a peak at it. it’s still there, sitting innocently waiting for its next potential reader. then i decided to observe it from afar. so i took the escalator up, hoping to watch it from one floor up. but as i was stepping onto the escalator, i saw the cleaner makcik pushing her cart towards the bench and looking at the book curiously. oh sh*t… do i just let the makcik take the book and consider it the book’s karma? or do i chase after the makcik and rescue it?
in the end, i went to take it back. can’t do that to a book, rite? so that’s a false start... gonna try releasing it again later. hopefully someone nice gets it before the cleaner makcik!
or maybe i should find a leng-chai, approach him and say, "hello, do u want a book? it's free!" and hope he buys me dinner? hehe...
Wednesday, 13 December 2006
new look...
i was tinkering with my template html, to see if i can include the password function into individual posts when i messed up the whole html codes... so i might as well change the template and give this place a new look... but after upgrading my template to the new beta functions, the recent comment thing don't seem to work anymore. still trying to figure it out... other than that, how do u like it?
anyway, let's see if the password thingy works. yh, feel free to try to hack into it!
read more
edited: yay, it worked! so next time u see these password-protected post, try to ask me nicely what the password is and i MIGHT give it to u! :Þ
anyway, let's see if the password thingy works. yh, feel free to try to hack into it!
read more
edited: yay, it worked! so next time u see these password-protected post, try to ask me nicely what the password is and i MIGHT give it to u! :Þ
ready for release...
ok, i think i've never mentioned this before here, but maybe some of you have already noticed the logo at my sidebar, that i've became a bookcrosser recently. end of last month actually... i think the concept is simply ingenious and i love it! releasing a book and then see where it ends up... tracking a book's journey... there's a certain magical feeling to it, don't u think?
however, not everyone shares my enthusiasm for it. the few ppl i've mentioned it to, other than YH, gave me the 'are you crazy?' look. *sigh...
anyway, i'm not gonna harp on abt other ppl's opinion here. the reason for this post is this:
the starter kit that i've ordered to prepare my books for the wild has finally arrived! so excited... it consists of bookmarks, post-it notes and bookplate labels enough for 25 books. ok, i know i can always download the softcopy file and print them out... but since this would be my first release, i wanna make it real nice. more exciting mar... will use the printouts after i finish up the kit next time.
i'm not lost - i'm on a journey! the post-it note:
bookplate labels, explaining what to do:
and so, my first batch of books ready for release! so excited...
hmm... wonder where shall i release them... anyway, here's a link to my bookshelf. not many books in there yet, coz need to register one by one take a blardy long time!
oh, and i've also joined the m'sian bookcrossers! they seem pretty active in the bookcrossing cause, having meetups every month and all that. i'll be joining their meetup for the first time this coming sunday... so excited neh!
however, not everyone shares my enthusiasm for it. the few ppl i've mentioned it to, other than YH, gave me the 'are you crazy?' look. *sigh...
anyway, i'm not gonna harp on abt other ppl's opinion here. the reason for this post is this:
the starter kit that i've ordered to prepare my books for the wild has finally arrived! so excited... it consists of bookmarks, post-it notes and bookplate labels enough for 25 books. ok, i know i can always download the softcopy file and print them out... but since this would be my first release, i wanna make it real nice. more exciting mar... will use the printouts after i finish up the kit next time.
i'm not lost - i'm on a journey! the post-it note:
bookplate labels, explaining what to do:
and so, my first batch of books ready for release! so excited...
hmm... wonder where shall i release them... anyway, here's a link to my bookshelf. not many books in there yet, coz need to register one by one take a blardy long time!
oh, and i've also joined the m'sian bookcrossers! they seem pretty active in the bookcrossing cause, having meetups every month and all that. i'll be joining their meetup for the first time this coming sunday... so excited neh!
Sunday, 10 December 2006
no updates...
been a lazy ass lately... maybe it's the holiday season, or maybe it's work. maybe it's because i've been too caught up with my other activities... who knows?
ok, going back to become a lazy ass again.
ok, going back to become a lazy ass again.
Monday, 27 November 2006
season of indulgences...
kh: did u get ur bonus or something?
me: nope. i dun get any bonuses this year
kh: *incredulously* then??? what are these? *indicates to his arms laden with MY shopping*
me: hehe...
kh: what? therapy?
me: yeah! my erm... 'sanity-gaining therapy'!*grin*
kh: *rolls eyes*
poor kh... who made the mistake of suggesting that we 'walk around a bit' after our lunch. well, let's just say he wasn't amused.
me: nope. i dun get any bonuses this year
kh: *incredulously* then??? what are these? *indicates to his arms laden with MY shopping*
me: hehe...
kh: what? therapy?
me: yeah! my erm... 'sanity-gaining therapy'!*grin*
kh: *rolls eyes*
poor kh... who made the mistake of suggesting that we 'walk around a bit' after our lunch. well, let's just say he wasn't amused.
Friday, 24 November 2006
message status...
Wednesday (22/11/2006)
craving for sushi!
Thursday (23/11/2006)
i want coffee bean...
Friday (24/11/2006)
nando's... *slurp*
bl: aiyo, u're worse than a pregnant lady!
me: :Þ
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i can't access meebo again... and gaim too! so it's just google talk now...
craving for sushi!
Thursday (23/11/2006)
i want coffee bean...
Friday (24/11/2006)
nando's... *slurp*
bl: aiyo, u're worse than a pregnant lady!
me: :Þ
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i can't access meebo again... and gaim too! so it's just google talk now...
on my own
it's funny... i've moved out of the parents house for like what? 8 years? and all these while, i've never been particularly home sick or anything like that. maybe it's because i go home fairly regularly and then there's always the phone. but once the parents are away and not reachable by phone, i'll start missing them!
and it's funny how when something is with you, u don't really use them on normal days. but once it's not with you, u suddenly find urself needing to use it SO badly! argh!
the parents have only been gone for less than a week on a holiday and already i have 101 things to ask/tell/update them! and i can't! coz there's no roaming coverage for their lines. *sheesh!
was making soup yesterday when i ABSOLUTELY need to ask mom something... and got so frustrated that i can't. so my soup would have to do without any advice...
fixed the doorbell a few nights back and wanted to tell dad and make him proud of me... but can't!
met an aunty (not really my own aunt, just one of mom's friends whom all we call 'aunty') the other day and am DYING to tell mom abt our conversation... but of course i can't.
was fixing the toilet cistern on sunday night when i need some advice from dad, but can't!
suddenly i wanna snap pictures of so many things, but can't, coz the camera's with dad.
wanted dad to check on some id numbers, but would have to wait until they come back.
*sigh...
i swear i'll appreciate them more from now on...
and it's funny how when something is with you, u don't really use them on normal days. but once it's not with you, u suddenly find urself needing to use it SO badly! argh!
the parents have only been gone for less than a week on a holiday and already i have 101 things to ask/tell/update them! and i can't! coz there's no roaming coverage for their lines. *sheesh!
was making soup yesterday when i ABSOLUTELY need to ask mom something... and got so frustrated that i can't. so my soup would have to do without any advice...
fixed the doorbell a few nights back and wanted to tell dad and make him proud of me... but can't!
met an aunty (not really my own aunt, just one of mom's friends whom all we call 'aunty') the other day and am DYING to tell mom abt our conversation... but of course i can't.
was fixing the toilet cistern on sunday night when i need some advice from dad, but can't!
suddenly i wanna snap pictures of so many things, but can't, coz the camera's with dad.
wanted dad to check on some id numbers, but would have to wait until they come back.
*sigh...
i swear i'll appreciate them more from now on...
Wednesday, 22 November 2006
blogger's block
have not been updating regularly lately, due to laziness. and also nothing much happening...
actually, there has been some moments when blog-worthy subjects would pop up in my head... but they're rather elusive. when i actually sit down to write a proper blog piece, the construction of words and ideas seemed so displaced that in the end, i just ditch the whole idea out of frustration.
hopefully my blogger's block clears itself up soon. or better still, hope something really interesting would happen soon! gosh, how boring and pathetic my life is! *sob*sob*
actually, there has been some moments when blog-worthy subjects would pop up in my head... but they're rather elusive. when i actually sit down to write a proper blog piece, the construction of words and ideas seemed so displaced that in the end, i just ditch the whole idea out of frustration.
hopefully my blogger's block clears itself up soon. or better still, hope something really interesting would happen soon! gosh, how boring and pathetic my life is! *sob*sob*
Friday, 17 November 2006
alex would never have dreamed...
voice
N: she will go get it from you. but she doesn't know how you look...
me: then how?
N: faster take a pic of urself and mms it to me.
text
me: sorry can't answer ur call now. in meeting...
N: ok, so what time shall we meet later?
live conversation
N: next week? what day?
me: it's a thursday...
N: i think i have something on... wait, lemme check my phone calendar...
voice
N: i saw a dress that's perfect for u!
me: really? for my friend's wedding dinner?
N: yeah... i can SO see u in it!
me: how does it look like? what colour?
N: wait, lemme send you an mms of it...
live conversation
N: i can't remember the tune... how did it go?
me: i think i have it in my phone... lemme play it for u.
text
me: i got a new haircut! n i dyed my hair!
N: what colour?
me: wait, i'll send u an mms...
live conversation
N: i swear this word exists!
me: no lar... it's a prefix, but it can't stand alone.
N: nvm, we'll just consult the phone dictionary.
ah, the wonders of technologies!
N: she will go get it from you. but she doesn't know how you look...
me: then how?
N: faster take a pic of urself and mms it to me.
text
me: sorry can't answer ur call now. in meeting...
N: ok, so what time shall we meet later?
live conversation
N: next week? what day?
me: it's a thursday...
N: i think i have something on... wait, lemme check my phone calendar...
voice
N: i saw a dress that's perfect for u!
me: really? for my friend's wedding dinner?
N: yeah... i can SO see u in it!
me: how does it look like? what colour?
N: wait, lemme send you an mms of it...
live conversation
N: i can't remember the tune... how did it go?
me: i think i have it in my phone... lemme play it for u.
text
me: i got a new haircut! n i dyed my hair!
N: what colour?
me: wait, i'll send u an mms...
live conversation
N: i swear this word exists!
me: no lar... it's a prefix, but it can't stand alone.
N: nvm, we'll just consult the phone dictionary.
ah, the wonders of technologies!
Wednesday, 15 November 2006
not in and not out!
got back at about 7.30pm yesterday and decided to go to pasar malam. been so long since i last went to pasar malam... and craving for pickled mangoes! but shucks, i forgot to bring my car keys in my work bag, so terpaksa go up to the apartment to get it... after changing into more comfy clothes, i grabbed my wallet, handphone n car keys, stuffed them into my carry-on and just walked out, locking my room door and front wooden door behind me. and right immediately after slamming that wooden door shut, something went *duk* in my heart and with a short, sharp intake of breath, i froze momentarily. without even having to check, i realized.....
oh sh*t!! i forgot my house keys!!!
so i'm stuck in that tiny shoe rack space between the wooden door and the front gate, can neither go out nor back in. can there be anything worse than that??? apparently, there is...
frantic calls to my 2 housemates produced only voice mails... grrr... why aren't they picking up??? deaf or what?! i think i must've left 10+ missed calls on their phones! so now i'm stuck in/out of the house, with no clue of when help would come. i could be standing there all night! argh!!! what can be worse than this? but believe me, things CAN get worse! damn murphy's law!
my phone started giving low-batt warnings! omg!!! how long more can i keep calling? after a few more warnings, i decided to place a distress call to N and get her to help call my housemates. so after waiting for abt 15 minutes, N called back to say that housemates are on their way, and asked me to wait (like i'm going anywhere!).
with no extra batt life to chat away the waiting time with N, what else could i do? *sigh... so just stood there like orang bodoh, smilled shyly at my opposite neighbour when they came home, pretended to be sending sms-es, hoping passers-by would think i'm waiting for someone, and avoided eye contact with my adjacent neighbour when he came home, making as tho' standing there in between that 2 doors is the most normal thing to do.
at long last, after an hour plus 'ordeal', i was rescued... luckily my housemates were just having dinner nearby and didn't decide to go for midnight movies or something! but all is not over, as i still had to deal with my room door (house keys were in my room).......
oh sh*t!! i forgot my house keys!!!
so i'm stuck in that tiny shoe rack space between the wooden door and the front gate, can neither go out nor back in. can there be anything worse than that??? apparently, there is...
frantic calls to my 2 housemates produced only voice mails... grrr... why aren't they picking up??? deaf or what?! i think i must've left 10+ missed calls on their phones! so now i'm stuck in/out of the house, with no clue of when help would come. i could be standing there all night! argh!!! what can be worse than this? but believe me, things CAN get worse! damn murphy's law!
my phone started giving low-batt warnings! omg!!! how long more can i keep calling? after a few more warnings, i decided to place a distress call to N and get her to help call my housemates. so after waiting for abt 15 minutes, N called back to say that housemates are on their way, and asked me to wait (like i'm going anywhere!).
with no extra batt life to chat away the waiting time with N, what else could i do? *sigh... so just stood there like orang bodoh, smilled shyly at my opposite neighbour when they came home, pretended to be sending sms-es, hoping passers-by would think i'm waiting for someone, and avoided eye contact with my adjacent neighbour when he came home, making as tho' standing there in between that 2 doors is the most normal thing to do.
at long last, after an hour plus 'ordeal', i was rescued... luckily my housemates were just having dinner nearby and didn't decide to go for midnight movies or something! but all is not over, as i still had to deal with my room door (house keys were in my room).......
Monday, 6 November 2006
simple pleasures...
1) waking up with full knowledge that breakfast is waiting for you in the kitchen downstairs, prepared for you by the people who love you, despite it being nearly noon when you woke up
2) having your tongue burned by a pot of boiling steamboat on a cold rainy day
3) watching k-drama the whole day, with an inexhaustible supply of mamee and cold ribena at your disposal
4) having your wish of eating o-chien (fried oyster) granted after showing only a pout, despite it being 'forbidden food' due to your being unwell
5) finding a much-longed for bag (in the very colour that you want!) in a 'small place' store, after looking for it for ages in the big city and being told repeatly it's been sold out
6) snuggling back into the covers on a rainy morning, knowing that you could get up at any time you choose, or not at all if you should so choose, due to the fact that it's a saturday
7) meeting up with an old old friend, and having a nice and comfortable chat abt everything and nothing at all
2) having your tongue burned by a pot of boiling steamboat on a cold rainy day
3) watching k-drama the whole day, with an inexhaustible supply of mamee and cold ribena at your disposal
4) having your wish of eating o-chien (fried oyster) granted after showing only a pout, despite it being 'forbidden food' due to your being unwell
5) finding a much-longed for bag (in the very colour that you want!) in a 'small place' store, after looking for it for ages in the big city and being told repeatly it's been sold out
6) snuggling back into the covers on a rainy morning, knowing that you could get up at any time you choose, or not at all if you should so choose, due to the fact that it's a saturday
7) meeting up with an old old friend, and having a nice and comfortable chat abt everything and nothing at all
i'm going!
Monday, 23 October 2006
taking it all in my stride, come what may...
ever since the beginning of this year, i've been feeling really down in the dumps with my job. every morning, i'll be dragging my feet to work, hating every moment of it. i feel like a different person all together when i'm in the office, and i hate that person! not a single working day will go by without thoughts of resigning...
last week was particularly torturous... my emotions were like a storm, ready to burst at the slightest provocation. i've even typed out my resignation letter, ready to 'throw the white envelope' at any moment. and more than twice, i nearly did it!
also, i've been frantically searching for vacancies elsewhere, making enquiries... i've even decided that i'll do freelance full time as a last resort!
but over the weekends, i slept on it and really gave it a good thorough thought... and i chanted for the wisdom to make the right decision. while chanting, i looked deep within myself... and saw very clearly the decision that i should make.
to cut a long story short, i've decided to stay on until i complete my contract in apr. and in this 6 months, i will give my very best in my work, to really challenge myself. if i were to leave now, it'll be doing things halfway, rite? and i'm sure wherever i go, this problem would still be plaguing me. so i need to break free...
after this decision, i felt so liberated! it's as if a heavy weight has been lifted from my shoulders and all the fog has cleared. i was even looking forward to come to work this morning, dengan penuh semangat, even tho' i had to submit my mid-year performance review today! and on thurs will be my review session with my manager... it's gonna suck, i know, but i'm ready to face it. somehow, it all don't seem so daunting anymore.
so, that's that...
last week was particularly torturous... my emotions were like a storm, ready to burst at the slightest provocation. i've even typed out my resignation letter, ready to 'throw the white envelope' at any moment. and more than twice, i nearly did it!
also, i've been frantically searching for vacancies elsewhere, making enquiries... i've even decided that i'll do freelance full time as a last resort!
but over the weekends, i slept on it and really gave it a good thorough thought... and i chanted for the wisdom to make the right decision. while chanting, i looked deep within myself... and saw very clearly the decision that i should make.
to cut a long story short, i've decided to stay on until i complete my contract in apr. and in this 6 months, i will give my very best in my work, to really challenge myself. if i were to leave now, it'll be doing things halfway, rite? and i'm sure wherever i go, this problem would still be plaguing me. so i need to break free...
after this decision, i felt so liberated! it's as if a heavy weight has been lifted from my shoulders and all the fog has cleared. i was even looking forward to come to work this morning, dengan penuh semangat, even tho' i had to submit my mid-year performance review today! and on thurs will be my review session with my manager... it's gonna suck, i know, but i'm ready to face it. somehow, it all don't seem so daunting anymore.
so, that's that...
Friday, 13 October 2006
what a lame *ss!
x: so u're really not gonna see me anymore huh? forever?
stargal: oh, sure i will...
x: when?
stargal: i told u b4 mar...
x: ?
stargal: when the world freezes over
stargal: twice!
stargal: then u'll see me at ur doorstep
x: oh...
(5 minutes later)
x: freeze freeze
x: twice d
x: never see u also...
stargal: *rolling eyes*
in case anyone's wondering, this has nothing to do with yesterday's post
stargal: oh, sure i will...
x: when?
stargal: i told u b4 mar...
x: ?
stargal: when the world freezes over
stargal: twice!
stargal: then u'll see me at ur doorstep
x: oh...
(5 minutes later)
x: freeze freeze
x: twice d
x: never see u also...
stargal: *rolling eyes*
in case anyone's wondering, this has nothing to do with yesterday's post
Thursday, 12 October 2006
and the point is?
*sigh...
sometimes, i just don't know what all these are for? what is the meaning of life? why do we go thru life everyday, do the things we do, some of them things we hate, day in and day out, over and over again, only to die in the end? i don't get it. what's the point of all these???
gosh, i do sound suicidal, don't i?
sometimes, i just don't know what all these are for? what is the meaning of life? why do we go thru life everyday, do the things we do, some of them things we hate, day in and day out, over and over again, only to die in the end? i don't get it. what's the point of all these???
gosh, i do sound suicidal, don't i?
Wednesday, 11 October 2006
sudden musing
if i can't be reborn as a human being in my next life and i have a choice as to what i wanna be, i'd like to be a dolphin pls.
Saturday, 7 October 2006
mid-autumn night's fancy
yikes! i nearly had a heart attack when i typed in my blog url and was directed to this! someone must've hacked into my blog, deleted everything and replaced it with all those 'why' nonsense! then i realized i miss out the 'magic' in the url. *phew* hehe...
neeways... spent the mid-autumn festival alone at home yesterday. normally, N's mom would ask me over for dinner and later we would sit around to chat orplay tanglung supervise N's younger cousins while they play tanglung. but this year, N's mom is tied up with something and N needs to go to her friend's bachelor's night thingy.
so that left me alone at home (housemates balik-ed kampung), with only kim sam soon for companion. L called to ask if i wanna go to K's 'moon night' party, but i wanna stay home anyway... nothing like spending a cool n quiet night with oneself, watching a good movie (ok, 'k-drama' in this case), with a few packets of 'rangup dan menyelerakan' mamee within reach, a tumbler-full of cold ribena on the night stand... ah, life is bliss...
can't see anything in the sky last night, save a thick blanket of greyish matter! *sigh* and seeing i din have any tanglung, i lighted this on my windowsill instead (lights off for added effect).
neeways... spent the mid-autumn festival alone at home yesterday. normally, N's mom would ask me over for dinner and later we would sit around to chat or
so that left me alone at home (housemates balik-ed kampung), with only kim sam soon for companion. L called to ask if i wanna go to K's 'moon night' party, but i wanna stay home anyway... nothing like spending a cool n quiet night with oneself, watching a good movie (ok, 'k-drama' in this case), with a few packets of 'rangup dan menyelerakan' mamee within reach, a tumbler-full of cold ribena on the night stand... ah, life is bliss...
can't see anything in the sky last night, save a thick blanket of greyish matter! *sigh* and seeing i din have any tanglung, i lighted this on my windowsill instead (lights off for added effect).
Friday, 6 October 2006
the phantom strikes!
how come they're going to s'pore and dun wanna drop by in m'sia ar? it's so near, and it's not like we dun have a proper venue for it...
neeways, they'll be gracing the s'pore durian hall (sure kena belasah by s'poreans after this!) in march next year. NOT gonna miss it!
one of my fav phantom songs:
All I Ask Of You
(*biow, i nvr copycat u ar... i've liked it b4 i found out it's ur's and em's special song! u know i'm a sucker for such romantic duets!)
RAOUL
No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I'm here, nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you
Let me be your freedom
let daylight dry your tears
I'm here, with you, beside you
To guard you and to guide you
CHRISTINE
Say you'll love me every waking moment
Turn my head with talk of summertime
Say you'll need me with you now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you
RAOUL
Let me be your shelter
Let mebe your light
You're safe, no one will find you
Your fears are far behind you
CHRISTINE
All I want is freedom
A world with no more night
And you always beside me
To hold me and to hide me
RAOUL
Then say you'll share with me one love one lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you here beside you
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Christine, that's all I askof you
CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you
BOTH
Share each day with me
Each night, each morning
CHRISTINE
Say you love me
RAOUL
You know I do
BOTH
Love me
That's all I ask of you
Anywhere you go let me go too
Saturday, 30 September 2006
more points...
1) 2 applications sent out today... 2 more to be out on monday. i know it'll be hard for my current salary to be matched, so will be willing to accept lower pay (but not too overly low!) *praying hard*
2) excited over pd trip. it's practically the main topic of conversations between N and i nowadays... most of the lists are out: budget, shopping, things to bring, activities... Seb was teasing that we're getting too hyped up and it's still so far away! by the time we actually go, we'd be burnt out. hehe... well, like N said, it's not really the place we're excited abt, it's the ppl we'll be going with! hope everything turns out well... no, not just well. hope everything turns out excellent!
3) apparently traffic to this blog has dwindled to a very kesian level... i may be wrong, but i think only biow is sticking to her daily visits religiously. hmm... nvm lar. the main purpose of this blog is to record down the daily trifles of my life, my feelings at one particular moment, get my thoughts in order...
4) still harping abt the trip to kunming/shangri-la. gosh, i SO want to see shangri-la! but the package the parents put together is so dem expensive! and then there's the worry abt leave. what if i manage to start a new job around that time? and a friend told me today i'd regret missing this trip because the china market will see a big rise in prices beginning next year... so things there will start getting expensive. still struggling...
5) hope N could get extra fundings for her studies, so that we can go on a budget backpacking holiday somewhere... cambodia? vietnam? been so long since we've gone on a holiday together. i think the last time was our map-in-hand road trip to terengganu in 2003. thinking back, we were (are we still?) really 2 adventurous gals! dad would kill me if he knew!
6) looking for extra tutelage for my cello playing. i think i'm ready to move on to a more 'advanced' level... but again, this would depend on point #1. hope the difference in pay would not be too big and could still cover for this extra expense.
2) excited over pd trip. it's practically the main topic of conversations between N and i nowadays... most of the lists are out: budget, shopping, things to bring, activities... Seb was teasing that we're getting too hyped up and it's still so far away! by the time we actually go, we'd be burnt out. hehe... well, like N said, it's not really the place we're excited abt, it's the ppl we'll be going with! hope everything turns out well... no, not just well. hope everything turns out excellent!
3) apparently traffic to this blog has dwindled to a very kesian level... i may be wrong, but i think only biow is sticking to her daily visits religiously. hmm... nvm lar. the main purpose of this blog is to record down the daily trifles of my life, my feelings at one particular moment, get my thoughts in order...
4) still harping abt the trip to kunming/shangri-la. gosh, i SO want to see shangri-la! but the package the parents put together is so dem expensive! and then there's the worry abt leave. what if i manage to start a new job around that time? and a friend told me today i'd regret missing this trip because the china market will see a big rise in prices beginning next year... so things there will start getting expensive. still struggling...
5) hope N could get extra fundings for her studies, so that we can go on a budget backpacking holiday somewhere... cambodia? vietnam? been so long since we've gone on a holiday together. i think the last time was our map-in-hand road trip to terengganu in 2003. thinking back, we were (are we still?) really 2 adventurous gals! dad would kill me if he knew!
6) looking for extra tutelage for my cello playing. i think i'm ready to move on to a more 'advanced' level... but again, this would depend on point #1. hope the difference in pay would not be too big and could still cover for this extra expense.
Wednesday, 27 September 2006
in point forms...
no mood (& lazy) to write long-long... so here are some updates in point forms:
1) the parents going to china again this year... kunming this time. was thinking of tagging along (at my own expenses!) coz the trip is gonna include shangri-la. i wanna go shangri-la! but in the end, decided against it. wish to see some balance in my bank account for once.
2) today, realised that where previously there's always music playing in my mind, now there's chanting. don't even remember when it switched!
3) in job-hunting mode now... so lost, and yet full of expectations. the future holds so many possibilities!
ok, lazy to think up more updates... that's all for now.
1) the parents going to china again this year... kunming this time. was thinking of tagging along (at my own expenses!) coz the trip is gonna include shangri-la. i wanna go shangri-la! but in the end, decided against it. wish to see some balance in my bank account for once.
2) today, realised that where previously there's always music playing in my mind, now there's chanting. don't even remember when it switched!
3) in job-hunting mode now... so lost, and yet full of expectations. the future holds so many possibilities!
ok, lazy to think up more updates... that's all for now.
Monday, 25 September 2006
dem pissed...
been waiting expectantly for it for the past year... and then i found out that i don't qualify for it, because i'm short of a few days! not even pro-rated! sucks, man! i've been here for nearly 1 & 1/2 years! doesn't that qualify for something? ok, if u wanna calculate it by financial year, fine. but at least a pro-rate lar! takkan just NOTHING!
and that fella there is of no help at all. when i 'informed' him abt it, isn't it obvious that he should do something, taking into consideration his position? but no... all he did was give some sorry excuse abt not being aware of it, bla bla bla, and then packed up and left! so??? no conclusion???
*sigh...
it's as if i don't exist in the system this 1.5 years. so demoralized...
excuse me ppl, while i go mope for my poor self...
and that fella there is of no help at all. when i 'informed' him abt it, isn't it obvious that he should do something, taking into consideration his position? but no... all he did was give some sorry excuse abt not being aware of it, bla bla bla, and then packed up and left! so??? no conclusion???
*sigh...
it's as if i don't exist in the system this 1.5 years. so demoralized...
excuse me ppl, while i go mope for my poor self...
Wednesday, 20 September 2006
happy birthday to you...
dear y,
just wanna wish u a very happy birthday. how are you? hope u are happy and life treats u good, whatever path u choose. pls remember that u'll always have a friend in me, no matter who or what u choose to be. sending good vibes to u, wherever u may be...
love always,
stargal
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y was my good friend in sec school. we spent 6 years in the same class, starting from std 6, but i think we only got close in form 4, when we went to the same add math tuition class. y was considered the geeky one amongst our gang, coz she's always reading stuff and knows a lot of weird info.
we became really close in form 6, even tho' we went to separate classes. we would always be seen together during recess and after school. sometimes, one of us would purposely stay back in school when the other needs to stay back, just for company. of course, we would give excuses that we're staying back to study, but none of us would actually get any studying done, coz we would be chatting away!
after form 6, she went on to UM to pursue her dreams in law, while i went to another university in pursuit of my own future. we still kept in touch occasionally, and it was during our uni days that she revealed to me something about herself. well, to be honest, i wasn't very shocked to learn of her revelation, as i've kinda guessed it. we continued being good friends, chatting on the phone and meeting up to celebrate each other's birthday. this went on for a few years, even after we graduated.
then a couple of years back, she suddenly disappeared. no more phone calls nor sms-es. no one in our old gang has gotten any success in contacting her. it's as if she has vanished into thin air.
once, i met her in a shopping complex. i was so happy to see her but she seemed uncomfortable to have bumped into me. when i asked her about all those unanswered phone calls and sms-es, she said she's changed her number and will sms the new number to me. but she never did.
up until now, no one knows what has happened to her. maybe she wants to break all ties with her old life. maybe she doesn't want to involve us in whatever she's involved in now. maybe she doesn't want us to judge her for who she is. maybe..... all the endless maybes...
i'm writing this here not because she'll be reading it. i know the chances of her stumbling on this blog is practically nil. i'm writing this because i wanna put it down on record, that once upon a time, y came into my life.
and then she left.
just wanna wish u a very happy birthday. how are you? hope u are happy and life treats u good, whatever path u choose. pls remember that u'll always have a friend in me, no matter who or what u choose to be. sending good vibes to u, wherever u may be...
love always,
stargal
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y was my good friend in sec school. we spent 6 years in the same class, starting from std 6, but i think we only got close in form 4, when we went to the same add math tuition class. y was considered the geeky one amongst our gang, coz she's always reading stuff and knows a lot of weird info.
we became really close in form 6, even tho' we went to separate classes. we would always be seen together during recess and after school. sometimes, one of us would purposely stay back in school when the other needs to stay back, just for company. of course, we would give excuses that we're staying back to study, but none of us would actually get any studying done, coz we would be chatting away!
after form 6, she went on to UM to pursue her dreams in law, while i went to another university in pursuit of my own future. we still kept in touch occasionally, and it was during our uni days that she revealed to me something about herself. well, to be honest, i wasn't very shocked to learn of her revelation, as i've kinda guessed it. we continued being good friends, chatting on the phone and meeting up to celebrate each other's birthday. this went on for a few years, even after we graduated.
then a couple of years back, she suddenly disappeared. no more phone calls nor sms-es. no one in our old gang has gotten any success in contacting her. it's as if she has vanished into thin air.
once, i met her in a shopping complex. i was so happy to see her but she seemed uncomfortable to have bumped into me. when i asked her about all those unanswered phone calls and sms-es, she said she's changed her number and will sms the new number to me. but she never did.
up until now, no one knows what has happened to her. maybe she wants to break all ties with her old life. maybe she doesn't want to involve us in whatever she's involved in now. maybe she doesn't want us to judge her for who she is. maybe..... all the endless maybes...
i'm writing this here not because she'll be reading it. i know the chances of her stumbling on this blog is practically nil. i'm writing this because i wanna put it down on record, that once upon a time, y came into my life.
and then she left.
Sunday, 17 September 2006
irrelevants...
1) i miss my poh-poh! watched 'the way home' again yesterday and cried buckets again. my granny was just like that! despite how ungrateful i was, how much i complained, how naughty i've been, my poh-poh would still be very patient with me and tried her best to please me. mom was always complaining that poh-poh spoiled me rotten, with me being the female grandchild after a series of males. and the very youngest grandchild of the lot! of course, i wasn't as spoilt and naughty as sang-woo in that movie, but i know sometimes i've hurt her. *sob*sob*
2) pissed with x. it's been months i've refused to see and talk to him, and YET he's still bugging me. what does he want???
3) looking forward to PD trip with a few gco friends this coming raya hols. as usual, i'm the kay-poh organiser... can't wait!
4) been really crazy at work. so many things that need to be taken care of! all urgent! pls do it now! eh, i only have 1 brain and 2 hands, ok? sometimes i really feel like smashing the monitor and cry loud-loud, in arms flailing and leg-stomping manner!
5) i find that i'm always observing ppl's fingers, especially guys'. dunno y... some guys have really sexy fingers! :Þ
2) pissed with x. it's been months i've refused to see and talk to him, and YET he's still bugging me. what does he want???
3) looking forward to PD trip with a few gco friends this coming raya hols. as usual, i'm the kay-poh organiser... can't wait!
4) been really crazy at work. so many things that need to be taken care of! all urgent! pls do it now! eh, i only have 1 brain and 2 hands, ok? sometimes i really feel like smashing the monitor and cry loud-loud, in arms flailing and leg-stomping manner!
5) i find that i'm always observing ppl's fingers, especially guys'. dunno y... some guys have really sexy fingers! :Þ
Monday, 11 September 2006
phone gripe
me: i called my mom juz now n told her abt my new hairstyle...
n: then?
me: suddenly only, she starts complaining abt me not being serious in getting a life partner!
n: har???
me: yeah man, i was like 'huh?' tiba-tiba saja kena, u know!
n: wah... what she said?
me: she said she kept chanting and chanting for me, but still no results. apa lar, own prayers dun show results, blame me pulak! hehe...
n: aiya, my mom also same lar. always say i 'jor-teng' (take up space) at home. what kinda mother is that, i ask u??
me: haha... ya lor, what kinda moms we have ar?! kenot stand man!
n: hehe... eh, ask ur mom can chant for me as well ar?
me: ???
n: then?
me: suddenly only, she starts complaining abt me not being serious in getting a life partner!
n: har???
me: yeah man, i was like 'huh?' tiba-tiba saja kena, u know!
n: wah... what she said?
me: she said she kept chanting and chanting for me, but still no results. apa lar, own prayers dun show results, blame me pulak! hehe...
n: aiya, my mom also same lar. always say i 'jor-teng' (take up space) at home. what kinda mother is that, i ask u??
me: haha... ya lor, what kinda moms we have ar?! kenot stand man!
n: hehe... eh, ask ur mom can chant for me as well ar?
me: ???
Friday, 8 September 2006
just exercising my consumer rights...
Customer Service Manager
Sushi Kin Sdn. Bhd.
Wisma Texchem
Lot 808 & 809
Jalan Subang 5
Taman Perindustrian Subang
Sushi Kin Sdn. Bhd.
Wisma Texchem
Lot 808 & 809
Jalan Subang 5
Taman Perindustrian Subang
47610 Subang Jaya
Selangor Darul Ehsan
8 September 2006
Dear Sir/Madam,
I would like to bring to your attention an incident which took place at your KLCC outlet between 6.30pm-7.30pm yesterday. As it was the last day of your Sushi Bonanza, my friends and I had wanted to make the most of our privilege cards.
8 of us had decided to go for the sushi galore yesterday. 2 friends and I arrived first, so we queued up at the line forming outside the outlet while waiting for our other friends. When our turn came, we told the waiter that there would be 8 of us, maybe more, and we would need 2 tables. He said okay, wrote down “8 pax” on the bill and proceeded to lead us to an empty table. He said we can sit down at one table first while he prepares another one for us as soon as a table becomes available.
However, this waiter became very busy after that, working at another part of the shop and probably forgot about us. By this time, there were already 5 of us squeezed into one table, so we decided to tell another waitress about our table requirements. But upon hearing this, she told us that someone would need to queue up again outside for another table. We were already eating halfway, and found her answer utterly ridiculous. We told her about the promise her colleague made to us, that he would prepare another table for us, but she still insisted that one of us go outside to queue up. And apparently, she has consulted the outlet manager and this seemed to be the manager’s directions. At this time, the manager was standing outside manning the growing queue. We told the waitress that we would like to see the manager, but after waiting for some time, the manager has yet to come, even though he kept looking at our direction. So I made eye contact with him and motioned him over. When he finally came, we told him about our predicament, pointing out that we specifically told the waiter that there would be 8 of us, showing the bill as proof. Had the waiter told us that each table would need to queue up separately, I would have asked my 2 friends to go in to the 1st table first while I continue to line up for the 2nd table. The next available table would have been ours anyway. But the outlet manager kept insisting that one of us go line up outside again, saying there are a lot of people waiting outside and it’s unfair to them. Then he went away without any conclusion or offering any solution. By this time, all of my friends had arrived and were crowding around our one table. When a table near us got available and the waitress (the same waitress who told us to line up again) was clearing away the dishes, some of my friends went to stand next to the table. But she said we can’t have that table and motioned to the customers at the front of the queue to come in.
That was when we realized that they planned to just ignore us and let us stand around without giving us a 2nd table! What kind of service is that? We tried to reason with the waitress again, but all she said was “Kamu kena beratur” and walked away with a dark stormy face.
After awhile, another table became available. So 4 of my friends who had been standing all these while went over to sit there even before the waitress managed to clear away all the dishes. After that, we noticed that service to our table has stopped completely. Teas were not refilled and plates were not cleared, and we had to request for tea refill a few times. Luckily there was a trainee waitress who was still very professional and did her job wonderfully.
The Japanese are well-known for their superior customer service and courteous manners. Shouldn’t these traits be reflected in an outlet that sells Japanese food? Just saying ‘irashaimase’ and ‘arigatou gazaimasu’ is meaningless if the speaker says it with a sour face.
Yours sincerely,
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(stargal)
Selangor Darul Ehsan
8 September 2006
Dear Sir/Madam,
I would like to bring to your attention an incident which took place at your KLCC outlet between 6.30pm-7.30pm yesterday. As it was the last day of your Sushi Bonanza, my friends and I had wanted to make the most of our privilege cards.
8 of us had decided to go for the sushi galore yesterday. 2 friends and I arrived first, so we queued up at the line forming outside the outlet while waiting for our other friends. When our turn came, we told the waiter that there would be 8 of us, maybe more, and we would need 2 tables. He said okay, wrote down “8 pax” on the bill and proceeded to lead us to an empty table. He said we can sit down at one table first while he prepares another one for us as soon as a table becomes available.
However, this waiter became very busy after that, working at another part of the shop and probably forgot about us. By this time, there were already 5 of us squeezed into one table, so we decided to tell another waitress about our table requirements. But upon hearing this, she told us that someone would need to queue up again outside for another table. We were already eating halfway, and found her answer utterly ridiculous. We told her about the promise her colleague made to us, that he would prepare another table for us, but she still insisted that one of us go outside to queue up. And apparently, she has consulted the outlet manager and this seemed to be the manager’s directions. At this time, the manager was standing outside manning the growing queue. We told the waitress that we would like to see the manager, but after waiting for some time, the manager has yet to come, even though he kept looking at our direction. So I made eye contact with him and motioned him over. When he finally came, we told him about our predicament, pointing out that we specifically told the waiter that there would be 8 of us, showing the bill as proof. Had the waiter told us that each table would need to queue up separately, I would have asked my 2 friends to go in to the 1st table first while I continue to line up for the 2nd table. The next available table would have been ours anyway. But the outlet manager kept insisting that one of us go line up outside again, saying there are a lot of people waiting outside and it’s unfair to them. Then he went away without any conclusion or offering any solution. By this time, all of my friends had arrived and were crowding around our one table. When a table near us got available and the waitress (the same waitress who told us to line up again) was clearing away the dishes, some of my friends went to stand next to the table. But she said we can’t have that table and motioned to the customers at the front of the queue to come in.
That was when we realized that they planned to just ignore us and let us stand around without giving us a 2nd table! What kind of service is that? We tried to reason with the waitress again, but all she said was “Kamu kena beratur” and walked away with a dark stormy face.
After awhile, another table became available. So 4 of my friends who had been standing all these while went over to sit there even before the waitress managed to clear away all the dishes. After that, we noticed that service to our table has stopped completely. Teas were not refilled and plates were not cleared, and we had to request for tea refill a few times. Luckily there was a trainee waitress who was still very professional and did her job wonderfully.
The Japanese are well-known for their superior customer service and courteous manners. Shouldn’t these traits be reflected in an outlet that sells Japanese food? Just saying ‘irashaimase’ and ‘arigatou gazaimasu’ is meaningless if the speaker says it with a sour face.
Yours sincerely,
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(stargal)
Wednesday, 6 September 2006
'cleft', not 'hare'
received an email from singaporean cousin w today:
Have received your birthday card & present for K last Friday. She loved it. K is now at hospital. She had gone thru an operation on Monday. Plastic surgeon took a small pc of her soft bone from her waist and joined in between her gum. So far her condition is quite well if compared with others patients. Her gum is not as pain as her waist. That day, after the opeartion, she tried to walk slowly by herself. She needs to do that in order to recover fast. But musn't walk too much cos her wound will split. Now, she can just drink or eat in liquid form but not solid food. You can call her @ +65xxxxxxxx or +65xxxxxxxx for J*.
*j is the maid
9 years ago, niece k was born with a cleft lip. cousin w went thru hell with her mom-in-law, coz according to chinese superstitions, a child was born with a cleft lip coz the mom handled sharp objects (like knife, scissors etc.) during the pregnancy. and because of her condition, niece k cried a lot during her baby-hood. it's such a torture feeding her (had to use special bottles)!
after a few months (forgot how many), niece k went thru a correctional operation. plastic surgery these days are a miracle, i tell u. niece k was a changed person! completely! other than a tiny scar above her left lip, u can't tell that she's had cleft lip! no one would know unless we tell them.
anyway, after that first surgery, niece k would need to go thru another surgery at the age of 9, when her gums and whatnot had taken a more definite form. and then that's it for the rest of her life! ain't science great?
when i called her just now, she sounded her cheerful and bubbly self. yeah, she can talk normally despite having had surgery on her gums! she just complained of a little pain when she walk. oh, and she's bored to death! hehe...
well, niece k is considered lucky because from what i read, approximately 35,000 chinese babies (in china) are born with cleft lips and palates each year and because of their defect, they are often abandoned at birth.
here's a pic of niece k, taken during cny this year. she's the one with maid j's arm around her (and dun tell me u dunno which is maid j!).
neeways, been reading up a bit on cleft lip on the net. and here are some facts (for those interested lar) copied from widesmiles:
- Fathers, as well as mothers, can pass on genes that cause clefting but some clefts are caused by environmental factors, which means it didn't come from Dad or mom.
- One child in 33 is born with some sort of birth defect. One in 700 is born with a cleft-related birth defect.
- Most cleft-affected babies are boys, however, it is not uncommon for a girl to be born with a cleft.
- If a person (male or female) is born with a cleft, the chances of that person having a child with a cleft, given no other obvious factor, rises to seven in one hundred.
- Some clefts are related to identifiable syndromes. Of those, some are autosomal dominant. A person with an autosomal dominant gene has a 50% probability of passing the gene to an offspring.
- Many clefts run in families, even though there does not seem to be any identifiable syndrome present.
- Clefting seems to be at least in part related to ethnicity, occurring most often among Asians, Latinos and Native Americans (1:500), next most often among persons of European ethnicity (1:700) and least often among persons of African ethnicity (1:1,000).
- A cleft condition is determined during the 4th to the 8th week of pregnancy. After that critical period, nothing the mother does can cause a cleft, and nothing a mother does can avoid the cleft. Sometimes it is determined even before the mother is aware that she is pregnant.
"Harelip" - The Dark History of an Unfortunate Word
The accepted and appropriate word that defines a birth condition in which facial tissues fail to fuse during gestation is 'cleft'. However, the parent of a cleft-affected child does not go far before hearing the term, 'harelip' instead. And we do not like that term. Why? Isn't it just a word? Most people don't mean anything negative by using it. Well, perhaps knowing the history of the term may help us to understand why it is so inappropriate. And so here, excerpted from an article from WIDE SMILES, is the dark history of the word, 'harelip'.
In the 16th century, it was a French Doctor who, when discussing a patient with a cleft, first coined the phrase that would be translated, "Lip of the Hare". In English it was more comfortably shortened to "HareLip". It was an unfortunate pairing of similes. The good doctor was only reflecting that the lip was split, as is the lip of a Hare (and every other rodent). But unfortunately for those who were born with a cleft, the hare had also long been associated with witchcraft!
It was believed throughout the dark ages and even to relatively recent times that a witch would often take the shape of a hare. And if a hare were to frighten a pregnant woman, she would give birth to a child bearing the mark.
In the 17th century the hysteria surrounding witchcraft rose to a new and frightening level. And it was during that time that the hare had become a symbol of Satan himself. A woman bearing a child with the mark of the hare, or a harelip, at that time, was thought to have had to have had relations with Satan. And thus, the cleft-affected child born of a woman, say, in Salem Massachusetts during the mid 17th century, in the midst of witchcraft hysteria would have condemned his mother to a violent end. That baby would have constituted "irrefutable evidence" of his mother's unnatural liaison with Satan.
Fast forward now to the 20th Century. Many people still use the term, "HareLip" when they mean to say, "Cleft Lip". Do they associate our children with Satanism and witchcraft? No, surely they don't. But it is nonetheless a term that has persevered in our language, long after a more accurate, more appropriate term has been coined.
At the very least, the term, "HareLip" likens our children to a common field rodent. It is not a soft, fluffy bunny. It is just a rodent. At the very most it harkens back to a darker past. A past that would never have happened were it not for massive hysteria on the part of a superstitious and almost militantly religious population. A past that condemned our children as the Devil's Seed, and condemned their mothers to death.
Have received your birthday card & present for K last Friday. She loved it. K is now at hospital. She had gone thru an operation on Monday. Plastic surgeon took a small pc of her soft bone from her waist and joined in between her gum. So far her condition is quite well if compared with others patients. Her gum is not as pain as her waist. That day, after the opeartion, she tried to walk slowly by herself. She needs to do that in order to recover fast. But musn't walk too much cos her wound will split. Now, she can just drink or eat in liquid form but not solid food. You can call her @ +65xxxxxxxx or +65xxxxxxxx for J*.
*j is the maid
9 years ago, niece k was born with a cleft lip. cousin w went thru hell with her mom-in-law, coz according to chinese superstitions, a child was born with a cleft lip coz the mom handled sharp objects (like knife, scissors etc.) during the pregnancy. and because of her condition, niece k cried a lot during her baby-hood. it's such a torture feeding her (had to use special bottles)!
after a few months (forgot how many), niece k went thru a correctional operation. plastic surgery these days are a miracle, i tell u. niece k was a changed person! completely! other than a tiny scar above her left lip, u can't tell that she's had cleft lip! no one would know unless we tell them.
anyway, after that first surgery, niece k would need to go thru another surgery at the age of 9, when her gums and whatnot had taken a more definite form. and then that's it for the rest of her life! ain't science great?
when i called her just now, she sounded her cheerful and bubbly self. yeah, she can talk normally despite having had surgery on her gums! she just complained of a little pain when she walk. oh, and she's bored to death! hehe...
well, niece k is considered lucky because from what i read, approximately 35,000 chinese babies (in china) are born with cleft lips and palates each year and because of their defect, they are often abandoned at birth.
here's a pic of niece k, taken during cny this year. she's the one with maid j's arm around her (and dun tell me u dunno which is maid j!).
neeways, been reading up a bit on cleft lip on the net. and here are some facts (for those interested lar) copied from widesmiles:
- Fathers, as well as mothers, can pass on genes that cause clefting but some clefts are caused by environmental factors, which means it didn't come from Dad or mom.
- One child in 33 is born with some sort of birth defect. One in 700 is born with a cleft-related birth defect.
- Most cleft-affected babies are boys, however, it is not uncommon for a girl to be born with a cleft.
- If a person (male or female) is born with a cleft, the chances of that person having a child with a cleft, given no other obvious factor, rises to seven in one hundred.
- Some clefts are related to identifiable syndromes. Of those, some are autosomal dominant. A person with an autosomal dominant gene has a 50% probability of passing the gene to an offspring.
- Many clefts run in families, even though there does not seem to be any identifiable syndrome present.
- Clefting seems to be at least in part related to ethnicity, occurring most often among Asians, Latinos and Native Americans (1:500), next most often among persons of European ethnicity (1:700) and least often among persons of African ethnicity (1:1,000).
- A cleft condition is determined during the 4th to the 8th week of pregnancy. After that critical period, nothing the mother does can cause a cleft, and nothing a mother does can avoid the cleft. Sometimes it is determined even before the mother is aware that she is pregnant.
"Harelip" - The Dark History of an Unfortunate Word
The accepted and appropriate word that defines a birth condition in which facial tissues fail to fuse during gestation is 'cleft'. However, the parent of a cleft-affected child does not go far before hearing the term, 'harelip' instead. And we do not like that term. Why? Isn't it just a word? Most people don't mean anything negative by using it. Well, perhaps knowing the history of the term may help us to understand why it is so inappropriate. And so here, excerpted from an article from WIDE SMILES, is the dark history of the word, 'harelip'.
In the 16th century, it was a French Doctor who, when discussing a patient with a cleft, first coined the phrase that would be translated, "Lip of the Hare". In English it was more comfortably shortened to "HareLip". It was an unfortunate pairing of similes. The good doctor was only reflecting that the lip was split, as is the lip of a Hare (and every other rodent). But unfortunately for those who were born with a cleft, the hare had also long been associated with witchcraft!
It was believed throughout the dark ages and even to relatively recent times that a witch would often take the shape of a hare. And if a hare were to frighten a pregnant woman, she would give birth to a child bearing the mark.
In the 17th century the hysteria surrounding witchcraft rose to a new and frightening level. And it was during that time that the hare had become a symbol of Satan himself. A woman bearing a child with the mark of the hare, or a harelip, at that time, was thought to have had to have had relations with Satan. And thus, the cleft-affected child born of a woman, say, in Salem Massachusetts during the mid 17th century, in the midst of witchcraft hysteria would have condemned his mother to a violent end. That baby would have constituted "irrefutable evidence" of his mother's unnatural liaison with Satan.
Fast forward now to the 20th Century. Many people still use the term, "HareLip" when they mean to say, "Cleft Lip". Do they associate our children with Satanism and witchcraft? No, surely they don't. But it is nonetheless a term that has persevered in our language, long after a more accurate, more appropriate term has been coined.
At the very least, the term, "HareLip" likens our children to a common field rodent. It is not a soft, fluffy bunny. It is just a rodent. At the very most it harkens back to a darker past. A past that would never have happened were it not for massive hysteria on the part of a superstitious and almost militantly religious population. A past that condemned our children as the Devil's Seed, and condemned their mothers to death.
re-opened...
sorry for the password-ed setting yesterday. hehe...
i was on mc yesterday and my clg wants me to give my pc password to another clg, coz his own pc conked on him. so terpaksa give lor... and terpaksa faster-faster online from home to password-protect this site, lest this said clg is as kaypoh as the previous clg.
neeways, i'm still trying to figure out y some of u can't sign-in... blogger help is of no help at all... *sigh...
i was on mc yesterday and my clg wants me to give my pc password to another clg, coz his own pc conked on him. so terpaksa give lor... and terpaksa faster-faster online from home to password-protect this site, lest this said clg is as kaypoh as the previous clg.
neeways, i'm still trying to figure out y some of u can't sign-in... blogger help is of no help at all... *sigh...
Monday, 4 September 2006
a morning shower
tiny droplets fall
lightly, almost silently
soft veil for the night
the world awashed
so fine it's almost mist
a light curtain
for the september morn
surreal
Sunday, 3 September 2006
back to square one
hmm... seems like this new beta blogger version has a glitch somewhere. some of the readers in my list can't seem able to log-in. *sigh... well, it being beta, i should've known it's still in the trial stage n will cause some trouble. so i'm removing the password for now. i'll try to find out more from the blogger ppl...
for those who've signed-in successfully, u can use back ur gmail account to sign-in once the glitch has been rectified and the tightened security is reinstated.
for those who've signed-in successfully, u can use back ur gmail account to sign-in once the glitch has been rectified and the tightened security is reinstated.
Friday, 1 September 2006
upgraded security
as all of u may have noticed, i've included additional security here... i know it's quite tedious to have to sign-in everytime u come here, but please bear with me, ok? i'm still not comfortable having all my thoughts and musings be freely available in the www. with this added security, at least i know who is reading... sorry for the inconvenience caused! :)
Monday, 28 August 2006
is that what it's all about?
some time ago, a good friend came to me to lament and complaint about his gf. seems like they have a lot of issues with each other, but are always sweeping them under the carpet without resolving any of it. he even used the word 'hate' to describe the feelings he sometimes felt for his gf! on my part, i kept telling him to have a good talk with her, a real heart-to-heart talk that doesn't involve shouting, insult-hurling or blind accusations. just lay everything out on the table and analyse their r/ship in detail. of course, that's easier said than done, coz humans have emotions and r/ship is a particularly emotional topic as it involves matters of the heart.
but i kept stressing to him that they need to solve their existing issues before they bring the r/ship to another level. if not, it would only get from bad to worse. mind u, i'm not teaching him to break-up with his gf or anything. it's just that those issues would not go away by itself and as time goes by, more issues would pile on one on top of the other and matters would eventually get out of hand.
then recently, he told me that they're getting married. and apparently, he's too much of a coward to bring up their issues to his gf. so they're just gonna bring their issues into their marriage and probably would eventually hand it down to their offsprings.
so is this what marriage is all abt? just because a couple has been together for some time, their next step would be marriage? in my friend's case, i think their matrimonial decision is due to external pressure. a lot of eyes are on them... but still! does that justify putting our happiness on the line, just for the sake of how others are judging us? does that justify jeopardizing our next generation's happiness?
call me a hopeless romantic, but what happened to marriages based on LOVE?
but i kept stressing to him that they need to solve their existing issues before they bring the r/ship to another level. if not, it would only get from bad to worse. mind u, i'm not teaching him to break-up with his gf or anything. it's just that those issues would not go away by itself and as time goes by, more issues would pile on one on top of the other and matters would eventually get out of hand.
then recently, he told me that they're getting married. and apparently, he's too much of a coward to bring up their issues to his gf. so they're just gonna bring their issues into their marriage and probably would eventually hand it down to their offsprings.
so is this what marriage is all abt? just because a couple has been together for some time, their next step would be marriage? in my friend's case, i think their matrimonial decision is due to external pressure. a lot of eyes are on them... but still! does that justify putting our happiness on the line, just for the sake of how others are judging us? does that justify jeopardizing our next generation's happiness?
call me a hopeless romantic, but what happened to marriages based on LOVE?
Thursday, 24 August 2006
it's still mine, after all...
dunno y, i've always felt funny pronouncing my BM name in full. feels so kekok... it sounds ok coming from my friends' mouths (yeah, sometimes we like to call each other's name in full), but when i myself speak it, it just sound so funny (as in funny-weird, not funny ha-ha). maybe i'm so used to introducing myself by my shortened name, that the sound of my full name sounds funny. gosh, i must be the only person in the world to feel alienated from her own name! so weird, right?
i really hate making official phone calls, such as to banks and government offices, where we HAVE to introduce ourselves in full. "Hello, I'm X___ Y___ Z___". urgh!
that's y i prefer places with answering machines. we just need to key in our details (id number, card number etc) and our info would all be there before we actually need to speak to someone. and since they oredi know who's calling, they just need to address us by our surname. "Thank you for calling, Miss C___". isn't that much more convenient?
as for my 'shortened name', i think it all started when i was in sec school. a bunch of my kk friends and i suddenly developed this penchant for calling each other by the first syllables of our given chinese names, adding the 'ah' in front for familiarity. it's so convenient, since most chinese names have 1 syllable of surname and 2 syllables of given name. eg: if your name is Foo Yin Mei, u'll be known as Ah Yin. or if your name is Khoo Hui Ling, then it's Ah Hui. it's as if we started out with full intentions of calling you by your given name, but got lazy half way and just stopped at the 1st syllable! haha...
anyway, i like my shortened name, so much so that i started introducing myself by that name in uni. it's short, simple, sweet and easy to remember. and i think it suits me. it's SO me!
i really hate making official phone calls, such as to banks and government offices, where we HAVE to introduce ourselves in full. "Hello, I'm X___ Y___ Z___". urgh!
that's y i prefer places with answering machines. we just need to key in our details (id number, card number etc) and our info would all be there before we actually need to speak to someone. and since they oredi know who's calling, they just need to address us by our surname. "Thank you for calling, Miss C___". isn't that much more convenient?
as for my 'shortened name', i think it all started when i was in sec school. a bunch of my kk friends and i suddenly developed this penchant for calling each other by the first syllables of our given chinese names, adding the 'ah' in front for familiarity. it's so convenient, since most chinese names have 1 syllable of surname and 2 syllables of given name. eg: if your name is Foo Yin Mei, u'll be known as Ah Yin. or if your name is Khoo Hui Ling, then it's Ah Hui. it's as if we started out with full intentions of calling you by your given name, but got lazy half way and just stopped at the 1st syllable! haha...
anyway, i like my shortened name, so much so that i started introducing myself by that name in uni. it's short, simple, sweet and easy to remember. and i think it suits me. it's SO me!
how m'sian r u?
with merdeka juz ard the corner, it's time once again to ponder on the significance of our independence and what it means to be truly m'sian.
wah... so cheem (deep) hor? hehehe... on a lighter note, take this quiz to find out how m'sian r u. juz for fun lar... and tell me ur scores! i'm 73.33% m'sian ler. so proud! :Þ
wah... so cheem (deep) hor? hehehe... on a lighter note, take this quiz to find out how m'sian r u. juz for fun lar... and tell me ur scores! i'm 73.33% m'sian ler. so proud! :Þ
Tuesday, 22 August 2006
the mediator
sometimes i really suspect the parents and bro are staying in the same house, but at different times. have you seen 'the lakehouse'? if not, go read the sypnosis here. i'm too lazy to explain it here lar... go on, i'll wait for u. (actually i've not seen the movie, but i kinda know the story lar :Þ)
the reason i said this is because the parents and bro are always coming to ME for info. i just don't get it. it's as if they don't see each other, even tho' they're staying under the same roof. for example, if there's an impending family trip coming up, bro would be calling me and asking, "so tomorrow how?" or "what's the plan for our trip next week?" etc. or mom would be calling me up and asking, "did bro update you on his r/ship?"
hello?!? don't they see each other, like EVERYDAY? why still need to go thru a mediator staying so far away (me)? sometimes, it makes me feel kinda guilty when mom asked me something and i'll have to say i don't know when i do know. i mean sometimes, some of the things bro confide in me are quite personal... so takkan i go blab everything out to mom rite, even tho' bro didn't say i can't? these kinda confidences come with an unwritten/unspoken rule of silence, rite?
rite?
or when mom 'unload' abt bro to me. takkan i go blab it all out to bro geh mar... of course i must filter it and put it into nicer words before i 'feedback' to bro geh mar, rite?
hmm... i wonder if all mother & son r/ships are like that? or is it just in my family?
the reason i said this is because the parents and bro are always coming to ME for info. i just don't get it. it's as if they don't see each other, even tho' they're staying under the same roof. for example, if there's an impending family trip coming up, bro would be calling me and asking, "so tomorrow how?" or "what's the plan for our trip next week?" etc. or mom would be calling me up and asking, "did bro update you on his r/ship?"
hello?!? don't they see each other, like EVERYDAY? why still need to go thru a mediator staying so far away (me)? sometimes, it makes me feel kinda guilty when mom asked me something and i'll have to say i don't know when i do know. i mean sometimes, some of the things bro confide in me are quite personal... so takkan i go blab everything out to mom rite, even tho' bro didn't say i can't? these kinda confidences come with an unwritten/unspoken rule of silence, rite?
rite?
or when mom 'unload' abt bro to me. takkan i go blab it all out to bro geh mar... of course i must filter it and put it into nicer words before i 'feedback' to bro geh mar, rite?
hmm... i wonder if all mother & son r/ships are like that? or is it just in my family?
Wednesday, 16 August 2006
different, but same also wat...
why is it that when people hear that you're doing part-time freelancing, they'll have this notion that u're loaded? or that u're so mata duitan (money driven - any better equivalent than this?) that one job is not enough, but u'll need to take on a part-time job to get more money?
and why is it that ppl don't take your part-time job seriously? i mean, part-time jobs are always not being given the respect as our regular day job. when u tell someone that u'll need to work late in the office, they'll respect that, and maybe kesian you a bit. u'll be seen as a responsible employee. but when u tell someone that u're so tired because u've been hard at work doing freelance, ppl would ask you, "really need to work so hard meh?", or "earn so much for what?" or "y do u need to do freelance?"?
i don't understand. the 1st reason most of us take on a job is because we need to earn money for a living, right? (note that i used 'most of us', coz i know there are some ppl who works voluntarily or accept minimum wage for causes they believe in). likewise, a part-time job earns us money for a living also wat. so why is it considered a lesser job? just because we don't put on a crisp suit, wear smart shoes and sit in the office?
and why is it that ppl don't take your part-time job seriously? i mean, part-time jobs are always not being given the respect as our regular day job. when u tell someone that u'll need to work late in the office, they'll respect that, and maybe kesian you a bit. u'll be seen as a responsible employee. but when u tell someone that u're so tired because u've been hard at work doing freelance, ppl would ask you, "really need to work so hard meh?", or "earn so much for what?" or "y do u need to do freelance?"?
i don't understand. the 1st reason most of us take on a job is because we need to earn money for a living, right? (note that i used 'most of us', coz i know there are some ppl who works voluntarily or accept minimum wage for causes they believe in). likewise, a part-time job earns us money for a living also wat. so why is it considered a lesser job? just because we don't put on a crisp suit, wear smart shoes and sit in the office?
Sunday, 13 August 2006
discovered!
sh*t!!! my clg read my blog!!! argh!
she sms me today:
hi, i'm in klcc. din't plan 2 go ofis so i don't bring my laptop. but i need 2 access sap. can i use ur pc 4 a while? tq.
so what to do? have to give my pc password lar... and when i checked just now, i found that a computer from my company server has viewed my blog a total of 45 pages, in a span of more than 2 hrs!!! shitshitshitshitshitshitshit.....
hence the url change. have always liked the word 'rhapsody', so decided to incorporate it as my latest address.
wonder what secrets she has read. i hope she dun tell anyone of the things i've written, esp my boss!!! argh!!! *pulling hair*
update: hmm... how come after changing the url, i can't seem to access my archive?
update #2: oh, can oredi. forgot to republish the whole blog. hehe...
she sms me today:
hi, i'm in klcc. din't plan 2 go ofis so i don't bring my laptop. but i need 2 access sap. can i use ur pc 4 a while? tq.
so what to do? have to give my pc password lar... and when i checked just now, i found that a computer from my company server has viewed my blog a total of 45 pages, in a span of more than 2 hrs!!! shitshitshitshitshitshitshit.....
hence the url change. have always liked the word 'rhapsody', so decided to incorporate it as my latest address.
wonder what secrets she has read. i hope she dun tell anyone of the things i've written, esp my boss!!! argh!!! *pulling hair*
update: hmm... how come after changing the url, i can't seem to access my archive?
update #2: oh, can oredi. forgot to republish the whole blog. hehe...
Thursday, 10 August 2006
addicted
gosh, it's not even 10am and already i'm yawning my head off!
i think i'm addicted to coffee... tried to go without my usual cup of nescafe this morning, coz thought it'll be healthier to have soy milk (fresh, cold & unsweetened) with cereal. but looks like i NEED my daily caffeine fix!
*yawn*yawn*
need.
more.
caffeine.
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on another note...
how irritating is it when a guy much older than u kept talking to you in baby talk? what, just because i'm cute and always saying cutesy stuff (not trying to be perasan here), u think u should act cute in front of me issit? or maybe u think i can only understand languages fit for a 3 year old? how imbecilic can one get? *rolling eyes*
i think i'm addicted to coffee... tried to go without my usual cup of nescafe this morning, coz thought it'll be healthier to have soy milk (fresh, cold & unsweetened) with cereal. but looks like i NEED my daily caffeine fix!
*yawn*yawn*
need.
more.
caffeine.
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on another note...
how irritating is it when a guy much older than u kept talking to you in baby talk? what, just because i'm cute and always saying cutesy stuff (not trying to be perasan here), u think u should act cute in front of me issit? or maybe u think i can only understand languages fit for a 3 year old? how imbecilic can one get? *rolling eyes*
Wednesday, 9 August 2006
when i hear...
it's funny how sometimes, when we hear a certain song, we will be reminded of something, someone, someplace or sometime, even without our meaning to.
some of the things that pop into my mind when i hear (in no particular order):
wind of change - scorpions
my secondary school seniors... heard them belting out this song one day (the senior's block is just next to our form 1 block). since then, whenever i hear this song, i'll think of them.
summer nights (from grease) - john travolta & olivia newton john
the time where my bunch of friends and i presented this medley of oldies for teacher's day. this was one of the songs featured. i think we did snippets from 14 songs? forgot the exact number. now whenever i hear this song, i'll look back in sweet fondness at our innocent (albeit amateurish) love for putting on shows (we were such drama queens!). but eeeeaaak! quite memalukan also! :Þ
there you'll be - faith hill
i'm like a bird - nelly furtado
my very first job after graduation. instead of working hard, my friend n i spent our working time listening to amp radio (online) and kept sending in requests to play this 2 songs over n over again! haha...
wonderful tonight – eric clapton
when you say nothing at all – ronan keating
x. the 2 songs he sang most frequently to me, while playing the guitar.
hu tie fei ah (fly, butterfly)
hong ching thing (red dragonfly)
- both by xiao hu dui (little tiger group?)
my kk days... taking a respite between our drillings and music sessions, we'd all sit at the tepi longkang and sing songs, and most of our songs were by this group. ah, those innocent days!
bie pha wo shang xin ('don't be afraid to hurt me' or more literally, 'don't worry i'll be sad') - jeff chang
a certain lengchai (i don't even know his name!) from my guitar group. i think i was in form 3 or 4 then. one day, this lengchai kor-kor took out the chords for this song and requested our teacher to teach us play it. and everytime we play this song, i won't be playing... i'd be drooling at the lengchai kor-kor! kekeke...
well, there are more, but these are all i can think of for now.
some of the things that pop into my mind when i hear (in no particular order):
wind of change - scorpions
my secondary school seniors... heard them belting out this song one day (the senior's block is just next to our form 1 block). since then, whenever i hear this song, i'll think of them.
summer nights (from grease) - john travolta & olivia newton john
the time where my bunch of friends and i presented this medley of oldies for teacher's day. this was one of the songs featured. i think we did snippets from 14 songs? forgot the exact number. now whenever i hear this song, i'll look back in sweet fondness at our innocent (albeit amateurish) love for putting on shows (we were such drama queens!). but eeeeaaak! quite memalukan also! :Þ
there you'll be - faith hill
i'm like a bird - nelly furtado
my very first job after graduation. instead of working hard, my friend n i spent our working time listening to amp radio (online) and kept sending in requests to play this 2 songs over n over again! haha...
wonderful tonight – eric clapton
when you say nothing at all – ronan keating
x. the 2 songs he sang most frequently to me, while playing the guitar.
hu tie fei ah (fly, butterfly)
hong ching thing (red dragonfly)
- both by xiao hu dui (little tiger group?)
my kk days... taking a respite between our drillings and music sessions, we'd all sit at the tepi longkang and sing songs, and most of our songs were by this group. ah, those innocent days!
bie pha wo shang xin ('don't be afraid to hurt me' or more literally, 'don't worry i'll be sad') - jeff chang
a certain lengchai (i don't even know his name!) from my guitar group. i think i was in form 3 or 4 then. one day, this lengchai kor-kor took out the chords for this song and requested our teacher to teach us play it. and everytime we play this song, i won't be playing... i'd be drooling at the lengchai kor-kor! kekeke...
well, there are more, but these are all i can think of for now.
Tuesday, 8 August 2006
can someone pls tell me why...
...guys are so 'fan-jin' ar? the more u ignore them, the more they try to get ur attention. urgh! trying to test my will power issit? get a life lar! i'm SO over you!
i don't understand.
i just. don't. understand.
i don't understand.
i just. don't. understand.
Monday, 7 August 2006
one fine sunday...
*sms*
me: i siao liao, woke up today n decide i wanna go out. so spent 30 min think where to go. guess where m i now?
N: midvalley?
N: ice-skating?
me: eak! wrong! in 1u! n i went to trim my hair at the same place we went last time, but different stylist. now i look like good-good girl ler...
N: har? so u still at 1u now? u very the siao...
me: yeah, now having dinner, genki! i really siao hor? i also kenot tahan myself ler...
N: u go alone? y dun u just give me a call n ask me? maybe i wanna go ler. in fact, i really wanna go, coz the shiseido counter owe me a set of starter kit.
me: it was just a spur of a moment decision lar. i forgot u wanted to go also.
N: u really siao. u need a weekend bf!
me: kakaka... i think so too! any good recommendations? keke...
me: i siao liao, woke up today n decide i wanna go out. so spent 30 min think where to go. guess where m i now?
N: midvalley?
N: ice-skating?
me: eak! wrong! in 1u! n i went to trim my hair at the same place we went last time, but different stylist. now i look like good-good girl ler...
N: har? so u still at 1u now? u very the siao...
me: yeah, now having dinner, genki! i really siao hor? i also kenot tahan myself ler...
N: u go alone? y dun u just give me a call n ask me? maybe i wanna go ler. in fact, i really wanna go, coz the shiseido counter owe me a set of starter kit.
me: it was just a spur of a moment decision lar. i forgot u wanted to go also.
N: u really siao. u need a weekend bf!
me: kakaka... i think so too! any good recommendations? keke...
Thursday, 3 August 2006
i'm a fainting queen...
N was telling another friend abt all my fainting episodes, and i realized i'm actually a fainting queen!
one of my most 'pai-seh' fainting incident happened when i was in my 2nd year in uni. it was a saturday afternoon and i'd just woken up. one of my housemates asked if i wanna go ta-pao lunch from the nearby kopitiam with her, but i was feeling so lazy and not particularly hungry. so i declined. but at abt 2pm, i felt really hungry. so i decided to go buy lunch from the kopitiam after all...
only the chee-cheong-fun stall was still selling, so i told the uncle that i wanna ta-pao. i was so hungry by then that i felt that i'm gonna faint. so while waiting for my food, i bend down halfway with my hands on my knees to try to get some blood to my head.
and the next thing i knew, i was sitting on a chair with a lot of activities around me, the vegetarian stall aunty rubbing my hands, the kopitiam operator's daughter trying to feed me some warm water with a spoon, the chee-cheong-fun's helper telling me that she's put my RM10 (that i was holding in my hand) into my pocket and voices asking if i'm ok.
gosh, it was so humiliating! since then, everytime i go to that kopitiam to ta-pao, i'd get an earful abt eating my meals on time and also a bigger portion of food! embarrassing!
and i find that the place i tend to faint most frequently is outside the toilet! this has happened at least 3 times! i would wake up and wonder why i'm lying on the floor outside the toilet door. ish... of all places!
hmm... wonder why i'm so prone to fainting... like so drama hor?
one of my most 'pai-seh' fainting incident happened when i was in my 2nd year in uni. it was a saturday afternoon and i'd just woken up. one of my housemates asked if i wanna go ta-pao lunch from the nearby kopitiam with her, but i was feeling so lazy and not particularly hungry. so i declined. but at abt 2pm, i felt really hungry. so i decided to go buy lunch from the kopitiam after all...
only the chee-cheong-fun stall was still selling, so i told the uncle that i wanna ta-pao. i was so hungry by then that i felt that i'm gonna faint. so while waiting for my food, i bend down halfway with my hands on my knees to try to get some blood to my head.
and the next thing i knew, i was sitting on a chair with a lot of activities around me, the vegetarian stall aunty rubbing my hands, the kopitiam operator's daughter trying to feed me some warm water with a spoon, the chee-cheong-fun's helper telling me that she's put my RM10 (that i was holding in my hand) into my pocket and voices asking if i'm ok.
gosh, it was so humiliating! since then, everytime i go to that kopitiam to ta-pao, i'd get an earful abt eating my meals on time and also a bigger portion of food! embarrassing!
and i find that the place i tend to faint most frequently is outside the toilet! this has happened at least 3 times! i would wake up and wonder why i'm lying on the floor outside the toilet door. ish... of all places!
hmm... wonder why i'm so prone to fainting... like so drama hor?
i want!
ks: u very tamak ler... everything also u want!
stargal: bwek! :Þ
things i wanna do:
1) re-learn japanese language
as said before here, been wanting to take it up again since leaving uni. took 2 semesters of it in my 2nd year but have forgotten most of what i've learnt.
2) take up korean language
seems like an interesting language...
3) take up photography
would love to capture moments and immortalise it. i believe a good photographer should be able to capture the character and feelings of his/her subjects, be it animate or inanimate. n i wanna do that. too bad bro refuses/lazy/bz to teach me... :(
4) read more
have not had much time for reading lately... taking so long to go thru a book! *sigh...
5) travel more
see more of the world. for now, would love to do some backpacking...
6) learn sign-language
dunno y... seems interesting...
7) sleep more
been SO deprived of sleep! mostly i get less than 5 hrs of sleep daily (weekdays), so normally by thurs, i'd have turned into a zombie
8) get diving license
fell in love with the underwater world since my out-of-this-world guided diving experience in lang tengah in 2004. but still need to overcome my fear of big dark holes in the seabed and being gobbled up by unidentified underwater giant creatures
stargal: bwek! :Þ
things i wanna do:
1) re-learn japanese language
as said before here, been wanting to take it up again since leaving uni. took 2 semesters of it in my 2nd year but have forgotten most of what i've learnt.
2) take up korean language
seems like an interesting language...
3) take up photography
would love to capture moments and immortalise it. i believe a good photographer should be able to capture the character and feelings of his/her subjects, be it animate or inanimate. n i wanna do that. too bad bro refuses/lazy/bz to teach me... :(
4) read more
have not had much time for reading lately... taking so long to go thru a book! *sigh...
5) travel more
see more of the world. for now, would love to do some backpacking...
6) learn sign-language
dunno y... seems interesting...
7) sleep more
been SO deprived of sleep! mostly i get less than 5 hrs of sleep daily (weekdays), so normally by thurs, i'd have turned into a zombie
8) get diving license
fell in love with the underwater world since my out-of-this-world guided diving experience in lang tengah in 2004. but still need to overcome my fear of big dark holes in the seabed and being gobbled up by unidentified underwater giant creatures
Tuesday, 1 August 2006
no more kankucho-ing...
been feeling pretty down in the dumps lately... everything seems so meaningless. dunno what this life is for also... it got so overwhelming that it finally overflowed when i was chatting with biow yesterday. funnily, things got better after a good (well, i wouldn't technically say it's 'good', coz can't really bawl my lungs out, but u get the idea) cry in the toilet.
neeways, biow pointed out that we're like 2 kankucho birds. complain complain complain, then resolve to do something abt it. but when the time comes for us to really 'do something', we'll forget abt our resolves, escaping by giving a million n one excuses. the next day, we'll feel miserable again and then start to complain again... it's a vicious cycle!
the story of the kankucho birds was told in the gosho letter to niike. click on the links to find out more... i borrowed the term 'kankucho-ing' from biow, who found it in brenda's blog after asking google for 'kankucho'.
after this realization, we told ourselves we can't keep going on like this. we must take action! we can't short change ourselves, especially when it involves our own happiness! so we'll start by accumulating good fortunes (again), coz all these while, we've been using up our good fortunes saved from last time but have not been depositing new ones... so of course we're running low lar...
and so yesterday, i've embarked on a new journey. will update my victory reports here from time to time!
neeways, biow pointed out that we're like 2 kankucho birds. complain complain complain, then resolve to do something abt it. but when the time comes for us to really 'do something', we'll forget abt our resolves, escaping by giving a million n one excuses. the next day, we'll feel miserable again and then start to complain again... it's a vicious cycle!
the story of the kankucho birds was told in the gosho letter to niike. click on the links to find out more... i borrowed the term 'kankucho-ing' from biow, who found it in brenda's blog after asking google for 'kankucho'.
after this realization, we told ourselves we can't keep going on like this. we must take action! we can't short change ourselves, especially when it involves our own happiness! so we'll start by accumulating good fortunes (again), coz all these while, we've been using up our good fortunes saved from last time but have not been depositing new ones... so of course we're running low lar...
and so yesterday, i've embarked on a new journey. will update my victory reports here from time to time!
Sunday, 30 July 2006
shattered dream...
i'm in a car, dad's driving and there are a few other ppl (dunno who - i dun recognise any of them) in the car with me. then suddenly it's not a car anymore, but a van (dun ask me how - these things are always happening in dreams) and i'm standing up to announce to everyone that tomorrow i'll be flying off to japan to continue my studies. i'm so happy!
the setting change again, and i'm in a hall kinda thing, walking around saying farewell to everyone, people wishing me luck and all... a part of me feels elated, coz at last i'll be going to do my master's degree, in soka university! another part feels a slight panic at leaving home and going to a foreign land (but mostly is elated lar!)
then... i have to wake up! darn! it felt so real! i was so disappointed, i wanted to cry! but instead, i went back to sleep, hoping my dream would continue. at least until i actually get there before i wake up again... *sigh*
the setting change again, and i'm in a hall kinda thing, walking around saying farewell to everyone, people wishing me luck and all... a part of me feels elated, coz at last i'll be going to do my master's degree, in soka university! another part feels a slight panic at leaving home and going to a foreign land (but mostly is elated lar!)
then... i have to wake up! darn! it felt so real! i was so disappointed, i wanted to cry! but instead, i went back to sleep, hoping my dream would continue. at least until i actually get there before i wake up again... *sigh*
Saturday, 29 July 2006
videos from perak trip
finally managed to upload these to youtube using bro's broadband. some videos taken from one of our morning practice sessions during the perak peace charity culture festival 2006.
You Raise Me Up - one of our performance pieces. song arranged by our very own YW! *proud*
Medley from The Sound of Music - one of the songs we prepared for 'pre-performance' (strings only - dat's y can see those wind n brass players walking abt behind!)
You Raise Me Up - one of our performance pieces. song arranged by our very own YW! *proud*
Medley from The Sound of Music - one of the songs we prepared for 'pre-performance' (strings only - dat's y can see those wind n brass players walking abt behind!)
Wednesday, 26 July 2006
time really does fly!
saw my high school teachers yesterday... and suddenly i realized, "omg, i've actually left school for nearly 10 years!!!" gosh...
was walking back from my RM4-in-the-wallet lunch yesterday when i saw a bunch of school kids. their uniforms suggested them to be in the 6th form, but what caught my eye was their school tie. no mhs (m'ca high school) student will ever forget that striped purple-green tie! but what are mhs students doing in klcc? a school trip? then i spotted ms. sheow, my maths teacher! i waved like mad and excitedly went over to chat. and then i saw ms. shirley chua, my econs teacher, who grinned like she won the lottery at the sight of me. hehe...
gosh, how they have aged! streaks of grey hair n aunty looking... has it really been THAT long? when i looked that the gals in school uniforms standing around looking at us, i felt as if it was only yesterday i was wearing those uniforms, rushing to quads (mhs got more style one. instead of the oh-so-common term 'assembly', we call our daily morning bloc assemblies as 'quad', short for 'quadrangle' – a square or rectangular courtyard enclosed by building), hoping the discipline teachers won't notice my slightly loose tie, yakking the day away with my desk-mate instead of revising for the dreaded stpm, skipping house practice to run over to mahkota parade, gathering at the mee-hoon-kueh stall opposite after school... has it REALLY been that long?
then i realized... in the eyes of those school gals, i must look real old. i mean, if i were in their shoes, at age 18-19, i'd look at someone my age as old! not as in ah mah old lar... but more like the age u thought u’d take forever to reach. Oh yes, it HAS been that long... *sigh*
was walking back from my RM4-in-the-wallet lunch yesterday when i saw a bunch of school kids. their uniforms suggested them to be in the 6th form, but what caught my eye was their school tie. no mhs (m'ca high school) student will ever forget that striped purple-green tie! but what are mhs students doing in klcc? a school trip? then i spotted ms. sheow, my maths teacher! i waved like mad and excitedly went over to chat. and then i saw ms. shirley chua, my econs teacher, who grinned like she won the lottery at the sight of me. hehe...
gosh, how they have aged! streaks of grey hair n aunty looking... has it really been THAT long? when i looked that the gals in school uniforms standing around looking at us, i felt as if it was only yesterday i was wearing those uniforms, rushing to quads (mhs got more style one. instead of the oh-so-common term 'assembly', we call our daily morning bloc assemblies as 'quad', short for 'quadrangle' – a square or rectangular courtyard enclosed by building), hoping the discipline teachers won't notice my slightly loose tie, yakking the day away with my desk-mate instead of revising for the dreaded stpm, skipping house practice to run over to mahkota parade, gathering at the mee-hoon-kueh stall opposite after school... has it REALLY been that long?
then i realized... in the eyes of those school gals, i must look real old. i mean, if i were in their shoes, at age 18-19, i'd look at someone my age as old! not as in ah mah old lar... but more like the age u thought u’d take forever to reach. Oh yes, it HAS been that long... *sigh*
Tuesday, 25 July 2006
too kind or too stupid?
yesterday ~ 11.30am
*phone rings*
me: hello?
j: r u working today?
me: uhm, yes. y?
j: help! i'm in klcc now. i came to do some shopping, but when i got here, i realized i forgot to bring my wallet! now i don't have one sen on me. i can't even go home coz i don't have money to pay for the parking!
me: har? then u want me to lend u money?
j: can or not? u're the only friend i know around here.
me: can ar... hold on, i'll come down now.
----
4.30pm
*thru sms*
me: me very charm ler. wallet empty now. x-clg came klcc to shop but forgot bring wallet. i had 2xRM50 n 1xRM5 in wallet. gave her RM100, left RM5 for lunch. now RM0!
N: har? then u got money? dinner how?
me: balik makan maggi lor. i din bring atm card today.
N: meet me at masjid jamek station. we go back together n have dinner together. i still owe u RM10.
---
today ~ 1.15pm
*thru sms*
me: argh! i forgot to bring atm card again! only have RM4 (leftover from ur RM10 yesterday) in wallet... guess what i'm eating now?
N: ?
can anyone guess what i ate for lunch (in klcc) with only RM4 in the wallet?
*phone rings*
me: hello?
j: r u working today?
me: uhm, yes. y?
j: help! i'm in klcc now. i came to do some shopping, but when i got here, i realized i forgot to bring my wallet! now i don't have one sen on me. i can't even go home coz i don't have money to pay for the parking!
me: har? then u want me to lend u money?
j: can or not? u're the only friend i know around here.
me: can ar... hold on, i'll come down now.
----
4.30pm
*thru sms*
me: me very charm ler. wallet empty now. x-clg came klcc to shop but forgot bring wallet. i had 2xRM50 n 1xRM5 in wallet. gave her RM100, left RM5 for lunch. now RM0!
N: har? then u got money? dinner how?
me: balik makan maggi lor. i din bring atm card today.
N: meet me at masjid jamek station. we go back together n have dinner together. i still owe u RM10.
---
today ~ 1.15pm
*thru sms*
me: argh! i forgot to bring atm card again! only have RM4 (leftover from ur RM10 yesterday) in wallet... guess what i'm eating now?
N: ?
can anyone guess what i ate for lunch (in klcc) with only RM4 in the wallet?
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